Busy Days & Missing You

I'm in the middle of a weird situation because I'm currently being OIC to a position I'm not so familiar with and it has taken a lot of my time since I started.

Right now I barely check my email, I can hardly post an entry here in my blog, and almost every night since last Thursday (except of course Sunday), I have been going home at almost 9 in the evening, and I can be seen in the office as early as 7:45 am... Huhuhu, I can't have enough sleep anymore and I really had to cut short some of my dreams because I need to be in the office so early.

Although the work is a little challenging, and I really like it, it's quite a responsibility and I always pray for guidance and sincerity of heart & mind. I also pray for strength & gentleness because in this field, I get to interact wiht different people, and I surely have to be a little gentle to all because the reputation of the company can get affected also if I won't be careful.

Hmm, anyway, I still managed to spend time with some friends last Saturday night because Dangsie, who just visited Cebu City for a business trip, contacted us all and we all decided we should have a night out. Think our pictures will be posted within the week... :)

Think I'll stop right here because I still have a report to finish... Tata!

Pirates and a Bear

Took a leave of absence yesterday, June 12, so that I can catch more on my dear sleep because I have been feeling a little weak in past few days, for which I can hardly find an explanation except for maybe I lack my favorite thing, sleep.

So I overslept, of course, to my delight. And decided, when I finally woke up at about 12+, to just go out and buy myself lunch - no shower, no combing of hair, etc. Fresh out of bed, hehehe.. And to my surprise, {well it's not really surprising,

Thanks Papa Bear!

because we're neighbors} I saw papa bear there in the carenderia [a small yet convenient place to eat or buy food located just outside or near your house].

{For those who do not know who papa bear is, you can check my friendster account if you have access to it, or maybe just ask me who on earth is papa bear, ok?}

Papa bear is actually one of the very few people who saw, and may probably continue to see, how I look when I just happened to get out of bed - when I haven't taken a shower, not even washed my face, haven't combed my hair properly, haven't even changed into more decent clothes. I was just wearing the shirt I slept in and some capri pants.

So anyway, he saw me there while my food was being packed in plastic bags, but he told me to just eat there with him, so I did. And as we went on with our conversation, of course, some of the topics would be how was I doing, was I okay, was there someone annoying who still goes there to see me, what does he do there, what does he say, am i ok with all of it, etc, etc, etc....we also talked about his parent s visiting from Dipolog for his sister's capping ceremony (she's taking Nursing), and why on earth he doesn't reply to another friend's text messages. Further on, I think he remembered that he promised to take me to watch Pirates of the Caribbean (At World's End), so he told me to hurry up and take a quick bath so we can go and watch it.

When we arrived in SM {SM is one of the most familiar places to be in, especially here in Cebu. It's one of the known malls here. So if you want to go out and hope to bump into some friends, you go to SM or Ayala...} at about 3pm, just in time for the next showing, so fortunately we were able to watch it from start to finish. This time, I understood what I was watching... Hehe.. Besides, papa bear won't stop asking things just to clarify the connection between the 2nd Pirates movie and this one... Good Lord...!

Anyway, while the movie went on, we talked some more, and after the movie, he went on with this speech that he usually does when we're left alone to talk things over, especially with my recent love life misadventure. It sounds weird to hear those "words of wisdom" from a guy, but I'm actually thankful {Thanks Papa Bear!} that I can see things from his perspective {and then start to wonder why my ex-boyfriend doesn't think the same way. Ahihihi..}. Nevertheless, I consider every speech papa bear makes as a new and treasured one, irregardless of how many times I've heard it from him, because each and every time he says these creepy-sounding phrases {because the things he says are those we usually hear from ourselves or from other girl friends while comforting or giving advise to other girl friends...;)} and statements, it just sounds a little more realistic every time. Besides, after all that he's been through in his own love life, I'd rather believe what this guy says on how guys think and how they should be acting or reacting, or why they do things, than others' opinions. But of course, if someone else, or some other friend of mine happens to have something to share which might enlighten my brain a little more, I would be very ecstatic to listen, and maybe I'll learn what other things I did wrong, or what other not-so-good decisions I made, or just listen, understand and accept that it was not really my fault after all.

So we parted ways by the jeepney terminal, because he was still going to go to Ayala to meet up with James to give him his sardines, and I think also with Bing-bing, papa bear's gf...{hi, Bing... :)}

So that's the Pirates' story... :P

Independence Day

Happy Independence to Everyone!!!

**Philippine Independence Day is on June 12th... ;)


Enjoy your weekend and holiday!

***Achoo!***

Good Morning... *Sniff*

I'm in the office right now, had my breakfast, the usual soymilk & meat roll.

But while I was checking on my friendster account, I just started sneezing. And when I start to sneeze, it usually takes about 4-5 sneezes before it actually stops! And now my nose is a little runny, and I'm sniffing away... :(

Anyway... I woke up a tad bit early, but I didn't actually pull my self from bed until it was already 7.30... hehe, the effect? Still the same... early rise or not... hehe!

So here I am again, posting away in my blog, my one and only confidant during this times... But as much as I wanted to put every sneaky detail of my thoughts & experiences, I can't & I won't because that would actually expose some of the people involved, and I actually don't want to do that. Besides, I'm amused by how some readers react - some of them even ask me in person if the post was about them or whether or not they were the ones I was talking about... Haha, talk about paranoia people! ;)

Anyway, I love the feeling, so deal with it.... :)

Answered Prayer

Found this, thought it was nice...

Butterfly Kisses

Every time I hear this song, and I mean EVERY TIME, I always grow teary-eyed and eventually, really feel the tears trickling down my face... I don't know exactly why, but from the very first time I heard this song, I thing we were walking somewhere and we passed by this house that was playing their radio really very loudly and this song was playing. I asked my companion to stop walking because I wanted to listen to the song, and since then, every time I hear it, it just has this profound effect on me that it just makes me cry...

So here it is, Butterfly Kisses by Bob Carlisle.



Lyrics:

There's two things I know for sure.
She was sent here from heaven, and she's daddy's little girl.
As I drop to my knees by her bed at night, she talks to Jesus, and I close my
eyes.
And I thank God for all the joy in my life,
Oh, but most of all, for...

Butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer.
Stickin' little white flowers all up in her hair.
"Walk beside the pony, daddy, it's my first ride."
"I know the cake looks funny, daddy, but I sure tried."
Oh, with all that I've done wrong, I must have done something right
To deserve a hug every morning, and butterfly kisses at night.

Sweet sixteen today,
She's looking like her momma a little more every day.
One part woman, the other part girl.
To perfume and makeup, from ribbons and curls.
Trying her wings out in a great big world.
But I remember...

Butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer.
Stickin' little white flowers all up in her hair.
"You know how much I love you, daddy, but if you don't mind,
I'm only going to kiss you on the cheek this time."
Oh, with all that I've done wrong, I must have done something right.
To deserve her love every morning, and butterfly kisses at night.

All the precious time ... Like the wind, the years go by
Precious butterfly ... Spread your wings and fly

She'll change her name today.
She'll make a promise and I'll give her away.
Standing in the bride room just staring at her,
she asked me what I'm thinking, and I said "I'm not sure,
I just feel like I'm losing my baby girl." Then she leaned over... and gave
me...

Butterfly kisses, with her mama there sticking little white flowers all up in her hair
"Walk me down the aisle, daddy, it's just about time"
"Does my wedding gown look pretty, daddy?" "Daddy, don't cry."
Oh, with all that I've done wrong, I must have done something right
To deserve her love every morning, and butterfly kisses
I couldn't ask God for more. Man, this is what love is.
I know I've gotta let her go, but I'll always remember
every hug in the morning, and butterfly kisses...

Ok, Fine...

I have no idea what I'm thinking about right now, I just can't believe I even wasted time trying to think. Hmmm, I should have listened to my instinct and instead stopped my brain from its activities.

Ok, I don't even know if I'm actually making any sense to you all right now. I might be the only person who understands this post. But what the heck, it's my darn blog!

Anyway, again, I just wished I didn't try to think, I wish I never thought about anything because in the end, it just ruins my brain wavelength. And my brain now have this uncanny yet stupid habit of being disgruntled and uncoordinated when my wavelength is disrupted. Oh God, what the hell?!

So I try to stop thinking but I end up thinking why I'm trying to stop myself from thinking, isn't that ridiculous? All I want is peace of mind, some quiet time without thoughts or feelings, without disruptions. But the thing is, a person can only achieve that when he/she is dead! So the solution? Kill Myself... hahaha! You wish!

Nevermind. I'm gonna have lunch instead.

Big Girls Don't Cry

Fairy tales don't always have a happy ending, do they?

MockingBird

I kinda like this song... hehe! So I'm sharing it with you... :)

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Lyrics:

Mockingbird (eminem)

well i know sometimes things may not always make sense to you right now
But hey, what daddy always tell you? Straighten up little' soldier.
Stiffing up that upper lip.
What you crying' bout?
You got me

[ Verse 1 ]


Halie I know you miss your mom
And I know you miss your dad when I'm gone
But I'm trying to give you the life that I never had

Everything always happens for a reason

I can see you're sad
Even when you smile
Even when you laugh
I can see it in your eyes
Deep inside, you wanna cry
'cause you're scared
I ain't there?
Daddy's with you in your prayers
No more crying
Wipe them tears
Daddy's here
No more nightmares
We gonna pull together through it
We gonna' do it
Lanie, uncle's crazy ain't he?
Yeah but he loves you girl and you better know it
We're all we got in this world
When it spins
When it swirls
When it whirls
When it twirls
Two little beautiful girls
Looking puzzled, in a daze
I know it's confusing you
Daddy's always on the move
Mama's always on the news
I try to keep you sheltered from it
But somehow it seems, the harder that I try to do that
the more it backfires on me
All the things, growing up
As daddy that he had to see
Daddy don't want you to see
But you see just as much as he did
we did not plan it to be this way
You're mother and me
But things have got so bad between us
I don't see us ever being
Together ever again
Like we used to be when we was teenagers
But then of course
Everything always happens for a reason
I guess it was never meant to be
But it's just something
We have no control over
And that's what destiny is
But no more worries
Rest your head and go to sleep
Maybe one day we'll wake up
And this will all just be a dream

[ Chorus ]

Now hush little baby don't you cry
Every things gonna be alright
Stiffen that upper lip up little lady
I told ya, daddy's here to hold ya
Through the night
I know mommy's not here right now and we don't know why
We feel how we feel inside
It may seem a little crazy, pretty baby
But I promise, Mama's gonna be alright

[ Verse 2 ]

It's funny
I remember back one year when daddy had no money
Mommy wrapped the Christmas presents up
and stuck them under the tree
and said some of them were from me
'cause daddy couldn't buy 'em
I'll never forget that Christmas
I sat up the whole night crying'
'cause daddy felt like a bum
See daddy had a job
But his job was to keep the food on the table for you and mom
And at the time every house that we lived in
Either kept getting broken into and robbed or shot up on the block
And your mom, was saving money
For you in a jar trying to start a piggy bank for you
So you can go to college
Almost had a thousand dollars
Till someone broke in and stole it
And I know it hurt so bad it broke your mama's heart
And it seemed like everything was just starting to fall apart
Mom and dad was arguing a lot
So mama moved back on the Chalmers in the flat
One bedroom apartment
And dad moved back to the other side of 8 mile on Novarra
And that's when daddy went to California with his CD
And met Dr. Dre and flew you and Mama out to see me
But daddy had to work
You and mama had to leave me
Then you started seeing daddy on the TV
And mama didn't like it
And you and Lanie were too young to understand it
Papa was a rolling stone
mama developed a habit
and it all happened too fast for either one of us to grab it
I'm just sorry you were there and had to witness it first hand
'cause all I ever wanted to do was just make you proud
Now I'm sitting' in this empty house, just reminiscin'
Looking at your baby pictures it just trips me out
To see how much you both have grown
It's almost like your sisters now
Wow, I guess you pretty much are
And daddy's still here
Lanie I'm talking to you too
Daddy's still here
I like the sound of that, yeah
It's got a ring to it, don't it?
Shh, mama's only gone for the moment


[ Chorus ]

Now hush little baby don't you cry
Every things gonna be alright
Stiffen that upper lip up little lady
I told ya daddy's here to hold ya
Through the night
I know mommy's not here right now and we don't know why
We feel how we feel inside
It may seem a little crazy pretty baby
But I promise
Mama's gonna be alright

[ Outro]

And if you ask me to,
Daddy's gonna buy you a mocking bird
Ima give you the world
I'ma buy a diamond ring for you
I'ma sing for you, I'll do anything for you to see you smile
And if the mockingbird don't sing and the ring don't shine
I'ma break that birdie's neck
I'll go back to the jeweler who sold it to ya
And make him eat every karat
Don't fuck with dad.
ha ha

Sleepiest Person in the World

That can actually be me... hehehe!

I am so darn sleepy right now, I think I can handle sleeping for 24 hours straight! Really!

I think it's because I slept late last night, more or less it was already 1 in the morning. I think I just had a lot of things to think about. A LOT of THINGS.... {and you know why...}

Anyway, so I'm here in the office right now, it's half past 2 pm and I'm still trying to steadily push my back up so I can sit straight and at least alleviate a little of the sleepiness that's in my system right now...And I'm wishing with all my heart that the President gets a headache and declares tomorrow and saturday non-working holidays also... That'll be a blast! Hehe! I even declined a friend who wanted to go out on Sunday just to watch a movie and roam around the malls because I really want to savor the day-off and just feel like resting and moping in my room, watching tv, taking glorious naps, being with mnyself and also to stop thinking for a little while and just enjoy the holiday... Oh, how I wish I can start doing that as soon as possible! Grrrr....

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if the door seems closed...

then darn it, use the window... ;)

Oh My God....

Weak and Sleepy

How I wish I can have this soon! It's so cute!





I actually have a happy thought today, well actually, it kinda hit me last night. It's going to be a non-working holiday on Monday, that is June 11, instead of June 12 (the Philippine Independence Day) by virtue of Proclamation No. 1211. I'm supposed to be really happy because of an additional day off, but I dunno, I don't quite feel ecstatic about it.

Anyway, I feel weak and sleepy today. I woke up really late, like 8am, so of course I was late for office. And when I arrived, my eyes were so heavy I could've dozed off while facing my computer!

*Yawn* I'm still sleepy right now even after a can of Coke and lunch. I even put some chili on my viand in hope that it will give me a little boost. But all has failed. Hmmm... So I just decided to post something, at least it can give my brain cells a workout.

I'm listening to an online broadcast of a local radio station, and it's playing one of the songs that I've liked since high school - Because You Loved Me by Celine Dion. I think this was also the OST of the movie, Up Close and Personal starring Michelle Pfieffer and I actually forgot his leading man. Anyway, it's mushy I know, so bear with me... :)

Think I'll just get myself coffee from the vending machine in a while. *Yawn*

Desiderata

We were in a department store yesterday at about lunch time looking for frames, and Badz showed me a frame that contained one of his favorite poems ever, the Desiderata.

{Badz, naa na diay nag claim sa authorship ani oy, Max Ehrmann... :)}

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Desiderata

Go placidly amid the noise and haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.
As far as possible without surrender

With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.

be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.

Avoid loud and aggressive persons,
they are vexations to the spirit.
If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain and bitter;
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.

Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.
Exercise caution in your business affairs;
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals;
and everywhere life is full of heroism.

Be yourself.
Especially, do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love;
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment
it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.
Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.

You are a child of the universe,
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be,
and whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life keep peace with your soul.

With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful.
Strive to be happy.

Max Ehrmann, Desiderata, Copyright 1952.

Someone who Doesn't Exist

Someone who’ll accept me as I am, no pretensions, no changes in behavior, no changes in attitudes or personality, just as I am when I’d first meet him;

Someone who’ll accept my family as it is;

Someone who’ll accept and love my friends as they are, someone who’ll not make me stay away from my friends;

Someone who’ll understand the nature of my work and my relationships with other people and how I deal with myself, my family, my friends, my problems and blessings, how my work affects my lifestyle and my life, someone who’ll understand and support me no matter what;

Someone who’ll make me laugh when I’m happy, when I’m sad and on the verge of crying;

Someone who’ll comfort me and soothe my emotions when I’m angry or frustrated or just not in the mood to laugh;

Someone who’ll bring the smile back to my lips;

Someone who’ll tickle me until I cry because of laughing;

Someone who’ll say I’m beautiful even if I just woke up and still wearing my pajamas and haven’t brushed my teeth; someone who’ll say I’m beautiful even if I don’t have make up on, or have been in sweat or if I gained weight;

Someone who’ll stay with me even with nothing to do but just be together and stare at each other;

Someone who’ll take care of me and stay up all night when I’m sick

Someone who’ll wait and watch me fall asleep when I had a bad day;

Someone who’ll say it’s alright even if it’s not;

Someone who’d build our relationship based on a strong friendship;

Someone who’ll always tell me the truth even if it hurts;

Someone who’ll be faithful and true, not just through words but by actions; someone who’ll not cheat on me even if I’m far away and he knows that I’d never know about it unless he tells me; someone who values our relationship more than his life;

Someone who values trust in a relationship, someone who’ll never break my trust and someone that will trust me as much;

Someone that will watch the night sky with me and wish on stars, believing that it will come true;

Someone who’ll just look me in the eye and I’d know, how dearly he loves me;

Someone who values affection in a relationship;

Someone who is charming, appealing, and also physically attractive;

Someone who’s family I will also get along and be comfortable with, someone who has a great relationship with all his family members;

Someone who will be with me through thick and thin, someone who’ll be my wall when I’m on the verge of breaking down;

Someone who’ll teach me things that I don’t know about, but in a nurturing and loving way;

Someone who’ll be my guide through life’s journey;

Someone who’ll seem to be perfect, but really isn’t;

Someone who doesn’t exist.

Someone Like You - the Theory

Have you seen this movie already? I know, some might find the title whimsical because it’s a comedy love story thing, but for people like me, especially us girls, we’d really learn a thing or two about why men behave a certain way in their relationships with women.

So here’s the catch, the story goes like this girl, Jane, played by Ashley Judd, falls for the boyfriend of their boss, he’s named Ray in the movie. So they have an affair going on until the guy says the “I love you” phrase. It turns Jane’s world upside down and of course believes that everything will work out just fine because Ray loves her. So they go about planning to move in together and look for the perfect apartment to move into. Ray says he’ll tell Diane (their boss and Ray’s girlfriend) about them so that they can end their relationship and then he and Jane can go on with theirs.

Jane arranges everything: she tells her landlord that she’s moving out, and so her apartment gets re-rented even before she’s gone, so that means she really should be gone asap. And after a few days, Ray appears in Jane’s office telling her that he already told Diane, and there was not the reaction that he expected, as he said “Diane was very calm about it.” So Jane assumed everything was fine and that they’re good. But soon enough she realizes that she seldom sees Ray, he doesn’t return her calls anymore, the contract for their new apartment never materialized and she had to move out of her own place! Drastic ain’t it? So she decided to meet up with Ray to ask him what happened, and as we expect, the guy has changed his mind. Although he didn’t say that he and Diane were back together (apparently, they really broke up but stupid Ray didn’t tell Jane; Diane and Ray got together only on New Year’s Eve), what he did say was that maybe he and Jane should take a step back from their relationship. Now that’s a darn good reason why you should start throwing plates at guys…. Hehe!

Ok, so this meeting ends up with Jane in tears; then one day she just had this obsession to research about things that affect the natural path of attraction between men and women. She bought books and magazines and journals so that she’ll understand the reasons behind the initial attraction and why these guys tend to just go ahead and leave. A little later along the story, she ends up reading an interesting article in a newspaper wherein the topics is why “Men are Polygamous”. So she reads it, digests it really well, and then when she finally understood, she formulated her own theory – the “Guys are Bulls and Women are Cows” (or something to this effect) Theory.

The Guys are Bulls and Women are Cows theory sort of goes like this (I can’t post the details of it because every tiny details wasn’t mentioned in the movie also…):

Guys are like bulls (male cows). They’re in a barn with several other bulls and cows (the women) and look around for the one cow that they think is going to be the perfect mate. Once found, he lets natural attraction take over – well in our case fellow humans, this is what we call the stage of dating. Guys look for the girl or maybe just accidentally bump on her, they talk a little and then he asks to meet again. So dating begins. They go out, enjoy each other’s company - and since the guy may really want to be with this girl, either because of lust or affection or maybe even because of love, he showers the girl with attention, gifts, flattering words, sweet nothings, and things like that. Ok so the girl gets hooked, and they officially, are a couple.

Next, when the bull has successfully won the attention of his cow, he goes in for the kill (meaning, they mate, ok?). Hmm, guys and girls, go figure.

So after the bull gets his share of excitement, he’d hang around for a while, and a little later, he’d completely leave his cow. Now we’ll term her as the old cow. And it was found out by farmers by observation that bulls don’t go back to the same old cow. They don’t do the same cow twice. Hmm, interesting. Because I know some guys who are actually like this – once they break up with this girl, they don’t go back to them, they sometimes stop communicating with them also, they’re not even “friends”. So for us humans, this part is the heartbreaker. Once the couple has been around for months, or even years, the human nature of guys is to tend to look for new adventures (I’ve realized this to be true and factual and not just some theory of Psychologists or Psychiatrists but by personal experience.). It maybe triggered by the comfort and familiarity between the guy and the girl, or maybe some physical distance that was brought about by work, or some other instances. So the guy carefully looks around for new “cows”, behind his girl’s back of course. And when he sees the new cow, he pursues her, silently or carefully, or even bringing the words “We’re friends” into the picture. So they’re friends. The girlfriend, who’s soon to be the ‘old cow’ may or may not suspect anything about it, she confronts the guy, but of course, it’s denied and the guy just says she’s just a friend or a classmate or a school mate that he met in one school activity or something. And the road to the relationship’s end begins here. You all can relate to this, I know. You’d know the basics of how the break up will come about, so just fill in the blanks, ok?

So by this part, Jane’s theory materializes the idea that Men are Polygamous by nature. Just imagine, by the time this movie was shown, the statistics were that only 5% of men are monogamous, and the other 95% are bulls. And I’ve discovered also that no matter how hard the guy says that he’s faithful and that he’ll never do this to you or that he loves you so much he doesn’t want to hurt you, human nature still dictates, and the polygamous side wins. So how can we girls cope with this?

I have no idea. Yet… But I may formulate my own theory once I’ve obtained the facts to support it. Ciao!

Grrrrhhh.... It's Cold!

I came into the office at about 11am, came from the CIA (Certified Internal Auditor) Exam Orientation in the Aboitiz Training Center in Banilad. Unfortunately, although the topic was interesting, and should have brought a different kind of excitement for me, I just was so sleepy I almost dozed off while sitting right in front of the speaker. Goodness... I slept late last night, think it was already past 1am.

Anyway, I got to hear and digest some juicy info from the said orientation and learned that so far there are about 50,000 CIA's around the world, and only about 700 of which are Filipinos. And the resource speaker isn't quite sure how many of the 700 are still alive...

So that means, mga Pinoy, that we are really world class people and we should be proud of it! The Philippines actually has on of the highest passing rates in the CIA Exams and so far, we have been consistent in being included in the topnotchers... Cool, huh? The national passing percentage last year was 30%, and Cebuanos, we had a 70% passing percentage! Yey! Haha, Congratulations!

So there... Grrrrhhhh!!!!

I'm so cold right now, my feet are so pale, my fingers are feeling brittle and my fingernails are actually a little bluish... I sometimes hate airconditioning! Hmph!

In a Rush

I'm in a rush in the office today, something came up which I was told to make a report on and the report is needed to be released by this afternoon, and my darn head is aching right now, and my eyes are a bot blurry. Think I may have slept a little early than usual, and it sort of screwed up my system for today.

Anyway, I had breakfast, "puto" and Chuckie, and I'm now chewing on a gum just to keep me awake and keep my other body parts busy... :)

So when I thought of the post title "In a Rush", I suddenly remembered this song I liked and decided to post the lyrics and included an mp3 file so that you can listen to it also... ;)

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IN A RUSH (by Blackstreet)

It came over me in a rush
when I realized that i love you so much
that sometimes i cry
but I cant tell you why
why I feel what i feel inside

how I try to express
whats been troublin' my mind
but still I cant find the words
but I know that somethings got a hold of me

It came over me in a rush
when I realized that i love you so much
that sometimes i cry
but I cant tell you why
why I feel what i feel inside

baby someday ill find a way to say
just what you mean to me
but if that day never comes along
and you dont hear this song
i guess you'll never know

it came over me in a rush
when I realized that i love you so much
that sometimes i cry
but I cant tell you why

why I feel what i feel in
feel what I feel inside

and when i say inside I mean deep
you fill my soul
and thats something I cant explain
its over me

'cause it came over me in a rush
when Ii realized that I love you so much
that sometimes I cry
but I cant tell you why
why I feel what I feel inside

it came over me in a rush
when I realized that i love you so much
that sometimes I cry
but I cant tell you why
why I feel what i feel inside

It came over me in a rush
when I realized that i love you so much
that sometimes i cry
but I cant tell you why
why I feel what i feel inside