Feeling a Wee Bit Crazy...Again

Funny how people shift moods every now and then, and I'm actually no exception. I can change moods in a split second, by demand or not, or whether I like it or not.

Just like now, right at this moment, I'm feeling crazy - woke up too early for myself. I would have chosen to sulk a bit in bed, but something just managed to pull me out of my reverie. Weird enough, I also arrived in office just in time, not late. Hmmm, had breakfast - meat roll & coffee - and now, I'm blogging. Quite simple, no fuss; I'm feeling fine but I definitely wish that nothing outrageous destroys my mood today or I'll be cursing it for the rest of its existence!

Ok, I admit I'm also searching for a nice pic to add to this post and my browser or my internet connection, whichever it is, is driving me nuts... It's so crazily slow, darn it!

Anyway, I wasn't able to finish the Smallville season finale in Studio 23 (Tom Welling is so cuuuuute....). Think it's one of the reasons I'm feeling strange today. But at least I saw an episode of Break the Bank. Mo Twister is so entertaining. Duh. But I like him.

What else? Hmmm, right after this post, think I'm gonna turn over my internet connection to my officemate who seems to enjoy sighing very loudly, enough to let me know that she's getting bored. (A big hotel is where I'm working and our office only has one internet connection. Kinda makes you wonder, where has all the money gone?!) After which, I'll be carrying on with my checking of the general cashier reports and later on the billing for the casual employees of our housekeeping. Kinda busy day. I'd rather be busy when I feel a little giddy. For no reason, just to take my mind off things and give it a monotonous path. hehehe...

Ok, so here's the pic I saw somewhere - funny, 'coz I can't do cartwheels. :)

Cool Tuesday...

It's quite cool here in the office considering that my basal temperature is a little up right now and will be for about 3-4 days (go figure...). Anyway, I was late for work but actually have my curly hair again.

It's funny how people react when something changes with your appearance. I got a lot of comments today regarding my hair (all comments that I heard were good, I don't know about those that I DIDN'T hear.... ); at a time when rebonding began to be a fad because someone related to the company gave out flyers announcing a promotion saying "All lengths - P1,500 Rebond up to Aug 30!", I was out with curls on. Hehehe. Suwail na bata! (insolent kid!)

So there I was walking with curls on while some girls were looking stiff with their medicine-treated hair. Although in the long run, I admit, their hair will surely look more fabulous than mine. Hehehe.... But, who cares? ;)

My fingers are getting stiff again, too cold an airconditioning unit here - as I always have complained about. And I thought we were doing some cost-cutting! Hmph!

So think I'll go now an post something some other time... Tata!

And oh, some officemates were in a hurry to go out, they're going to a fiesta somewhere... ;)

And they leaved happiness ever after...

I found this really funny story, read on... :)


We've been friends for a long time ago. We come from the same alma mother. Actually, our paths crossed one time on another. But it's only now that I gave him a second look. I realized that beauty is in the eyes. The pulpbits of my heart went fast, really fast. Cute pala siya. And then, he came over with me.

He said, "I hope you don't mine. Can I get your number?"

Nag-worry ako. What if he doesn't give it back? He explained naman na it's so we could keep intact daw. Sabi ko, "Connect me if i'm wrong but are you asking me ouch?"
"The!?!!??". .. ang sarcastic na sagot nya.

Aba! The verb! Parang siya pa ang galit! Persona ingrata!!! Ang kapal niya! I cried buckles of tears.

Na-guilty yata siya. Sabi niya, isipin mo na lang na this is a blessing in the sky. Irregardless daw of his feelings, we should go ouch na rin.
Now, we're so in love. Mute and epidemic na ang past. Thanks God we swallowed our fried. Kasi, I'm 33 na and I'm running our time. After 2 weeks, he plopped the question. "Will you marriage me?" I'm in a state of shocked. Kasi mantakin mo, when it rains, it's four! This is true good to be true. So siyempre, I said yes. Love is a many splendor.

Pero nung inaayos ko na ang aming kasal, everything swell to pieces. Nag-di-dinner kami noon nang biglang sa harap ng aming table, may babaeng humirit ng, "Well, well, well. Look do we have here." What the fuss! The nerd ng babaeng yon! She said they were still on. So I told her, whatever is that, cut me some slacks! I didn't want this to get our hand kaya I had to sip it in the bud. She accused me of steeling her boyfriend. As is!!! I don't want to portrait the role of the other woman. Gosh, tell me to the marines! I told her, "please, mine you own business!" Who would believe her anyway?

Dahil it's not my problem anymore but her problem anymore, tumigil na rin siya ng panggugulo. Everything is coming up daisies. I'm so happy. Even my boyfriend said liketwice. He's so supportive. Sabi niya, "Look at is this way. She's our of our lives."

Kaya advise ko sa inyo - take the risk. You can never can tell. Just burn the bridge when you get there. Life is shorts. If you make a mistake, we'll just pray for the internal and external repose of your soul. I second emotion.

Nery's in Singapore!

I signed in on my YM yesterday and was a little surprised to received an immediate message from Nery, the Cost Controller of G Hotel Manila (that's by Waterfront, of course!). She said she's in Singapore right now and will be back on the 30th yet.

We chatted, like crazy people that we are, with topics like work, love life, and what the heck she was doing in Singapore, hehehe. She said she was just touring around, looking for a prospective new career. Hmmmm.... Does that mean...? ;)

Anyway, so we chatted along, and later on the discussion she mentioned she's gonna bring home something for me. Cool! Yey! Hehehe, thanks gurl... Miss you.

So that's my good morning post for you guys & gals who really kinda try their best to keep on visiting my blog. Take care of yourselves always. God bless you!

WHO did That?!

Hmmm, seems like my readers know how to follow a click-through story, huh?

Ok, anyway, my mom and i had a chat through SMS last night (that's text messaging, Philippines is kinda known to spend a lot for text messaging...) and were on our usual how-are-you-I'm-fine-thank-you kinda questions up until a point where she decided to tell me a kinda eerie story.

Our house has two floors. It used to be a storehouse, that's why it's kinda spacious. Anyway, the lower floor is where we keep most of the things we don't use anymore.

Stories about that house have been circulating since I was in college - stories of personal experiences with the paranormal. They say a man lives there, others say it's a boy, like a 3 or 5 year old toddler. But my mom says otherwise. She says both.

My mom has this knack for the paranormal, sometimes she feels things that we consider creepy and sometimes she even sees them. I find it bizarre and annoying sometimes because it just gives me the creeps.

Although I've had an experience with it once, like it was already 11pm and only mom and I were still awake. My brother is sound asleep and dad was still out of the house and we'd know he already arrived when we hear the sound of his motorbike and hear his footsteps up on the stairs.
So we were chatting our silly chat and then we kinda went quiet for a while and then... We both heard heavy footsteps walking up the stairs and the hook and eye attached to this swinging wood doorlet (it was small so I'll call it a 'doorlet') was being played with or I think unlocked or something. "Ma, daddy's here..."

"Are you sure? I don't think so." And then she smiled. I cringed! Oh my God, so I ran to the door and looked outside to check if dad's bike was already there and to see if there really was someone by the stairs.

Sh*t! There was no one there, not a bike, not a person, not my dad, no one! I ran back to the bed with my mom and felt really cold. Mom said I was so pale she thought I saw a ghost. Understatement?

So let's go back to my mom's recent adventure. She said it was a rainy afternoon, as in it was literally raining hard. My dad was already asleep on the bed and mom, for all her craziness, went downstairs and set up her bunk there to have her afternoon siesta also. She says what she remembered was that although it was a little cold because of the rain she did not use any blanket to cover herself. And what's interesting was that when she woke up, she already had a blanket on!

So I told her, as logically as it seems, that maybe you pulled up a blanket subconsciously because you were already cold, or maybe it was daddy who covered you up, besides she also said she dreamt of dad all the while, I just forgot to ask what the dream was about. Know what her reply was? "Dad's still upstairs when I woke up. He was snoring."

Goodness! Meaning?! Oh, how creepy! So I asked her what she did. Mom said her hairs were on its ends and she cringed at the thought that something covered her with the blanket so she hurriedly went upstairs and laid down beside dad. Hehehe.... :) I think she didn't mention anything to daddy because dad's also a scaredycat. :)

Creepy huh? Crazy, too.

Hehehe! 'Til next post! :)

Cold Friday Morning

Good Morning, it's kinda cold, ain't it?

Think it rained during the wee hours of the night because when I went out of the house to hurry for work (I was thinking I'm already very late!), I noticed that the paths were wet, and the walkway going to our office building had pools of water on them.

Hmmm, officially, I had breakfast. Not a fancy one though, just a small pack of chips and a bottle of Soya milk (I used to not like soya milk, but now, I'm kinda crazy about it). Anyway, after finishing off the salt dust on the tips of my forefinger, I went into the office and checked my emails and decided to update my blog again. I just love writing down my feelings or just spending time sharing my thoughts and life to hundreds of people that I don't know. Talk about passion!

But the thing is, my fingers are kinda stiff. Why? Because! The darn aircon again is driving me nuts! I'm not an airconditioning unit kinda gal, an I hate too much cold, especially if I don't have someone to hug me through it. Anyway, my hands are getting the hang of it because I'm typing. :)

Hehehe! Why don't you go to my next post (WHO did That?!) because I have an interesting story there that I got from my mom. :p Ciao!

Awwww.....

My back hurts...



Huhuhuhuhu...

Dump Him, Dump Him Not

I've been looking at my blogstats and what a surprise, most hits came from the post related to dumping the guy... Hmmmm... Seems like it's a common dilemma, huh?

Well, I'm not an expert, nor do I consider myself one. I just have had this experience of a really terrible break-up, and came to realize that all the tell-tale signs (well at least the common ones almost always mentioned in advice columns...) were present but I was just so blinded by my efforts (at least I felt I tried) of trying to patch things up that I didn't quite notice 'em.

So in summary, and also based on my experience, some of the signs that your relationship may be on the verge of a rocky part or is almost at the point of self-destruction are the following:

1. Changes in behavior. This may include sudden interest in new perfumes/scents, new shirts, new pants, or possible new looks that may or may not it him. Sometimes, these guys might even ask you for advice. And at times, even when he's just going somewhere around the corner, he stops for a while and takes time to wear his perfume and comb his hair (given that he isn't this usually conscious about how he looked or smelled).

2. More comments on your attitudes/behavior/physical appearance. So far as I've read in articles in the internet, this is one way a guy tries to pick a fight on you. Most probably because he knows that when you're almost at the brink of exploding, you almost always never fail to ask for a break-up, and so he does it. Starts a fight, hoping against all hope that you will, ask - rather command - that you part ways.

3. Noticeably Busier that Before. Of course, the tendency is that we will surely notice, ask why, and yet believe whatever he tells us, right? Well girls, time for you to stop and think - is he telling you the truth? Suddenly he's so busy he forgets to drop you a line or even send an SMS? Hmmmm, something fishy....

4. Finally, when you tell him that you think you should break up, he doesn't say a word and just leaves you alone.



There.... Good enough?

Take care.... :)

Choose-day Hues

Hmmm, I chose to play with my hair today and decided to go to the office with curls. Although my hair is a lot shorter than before - due to braincell breakdown, I was so excited to get a haircut, and now I'm kinda dreading it. Anyway, so as I said, I went to the office with curls on.

It's not much of a fuss, I just like the feeling of having a little curl in my hair. Besides, it wasn't only me who arrived in the office with changes made to their locks.

My "boss" also had her hair done. The usual side part was now in the middle. And the usual salon-done straight hair was renewed, with a little color red - the same hue you notice on recently-done hair. Hmmm, I wasn't quite overwhelmed by the change, although I admit, I was curious enough to notice that even a change in where the hair is parted can give such a different effect on the face of the wearer. Well, some changes are for the better, others are well, for the good.

Okay, so I just saw my boss rushing out of the office, I wonder where she's going. Think she's going to see her doctor again. She seems to be so stressed nowadays that all her organs seem to be having something wrong. Terrible. But well, it was and still is her choice to be so stressed over some things that concerns the whole company. She might as well be as stressed as the President himself!

So let's deviate a bit. What else do I need to update you with? hmmmm.... Oh, we already saw the Bourne Ultimatum. We even had

Sa tingin mo manunuod ng Love Story yang mga lalaking yan?!

this bloopers moment when we went into the movie house. Like we were so confident that we we're lining up for the right cinema, that is Cinema 2, because that is what Teresa remembered - as what Faye told her - so we just lined up. I had no idea which cinema it really is because I was kinda away taking care of the food (butter-flavored popcorn, yummy...) and also because there was a bunch of big guys who were also lining up for the same movie who all kept on eating and munching away their movie food.

So okay, let's forgive the guys, because in all fairness, they were a little good-looking, although they just were so buffed they seemed like bodybuilders.

After about 10-15 minutes of standing in line, we went with the flow of the people and entered the cinema, and quietly watched the trailers. But then flashed something that puzzled us - the logo of Star Cinema. Oh my gosh. It was "A Love Story". We were in the wrong darn cinema! How could that be? Teresa was going nuts reasoning out with Faye & me when we really didn't ask her to do so, nor did we blame her. She even pointed at the big guys who were just sitting right in front of us and she was saying, "Sa tingin mo manunuod ng Love Story yang mga lalaking yan?!"

And the obvious answer? - "Haler? Obvious bah? Here they are, right? Not even a single opposition that Love Story was already starting! So that only means that they really are watching the right movie, and since only the three of us are puzzled, then I strongly conclude that we are the ones lost! Tingin mo sa laki ng mga taong yan di yan magrereklamo kung mali yung pinapanuod nila?!" {whew! I can never be too harsh when I'm writing... hehehe!}

So what Faye did was she stood up, asked the people looking over at the entrance whether we can still go the other cinema, Cinema 3, the correct one mind you. Teresa was still trying to defend herself by reasoning out, duh. Get over it, dear, we were lost... Hehehe!

this is Faye

and this is me with Teresa

Eventually when we have already transferred, watched the correct movie, and finished our popcorn, Teresa was calm. She enjoyed the movie, even laughed at herself for what happened to us. Faye was also laughing. So therefore, we enjoyed our movie. :)

Cheers!

Saturday....

Today seems to be just another day... or so I thought.

I'm having my pre-lunch break coffee and I've always loved the warm feeling of that hot liquid traveling down your throat to your tummy. Although at times it hurts, it makes me feel warm and fuzzy inside.... ( I remember Bambi with the 'fuzzy' word, she used to have that oh my fuzzy wuzzy expression which totally annoys Choochoo...)



Anyway, as I've said I'm having my coffee and it just hit me that all the while I was thinking that today is just another day for me. But deep inside I know it's not gonna be ordinary. I have this
funny feeling that I will face a problem or an annoying thought or event of some sort within the day because I was feeling light and, allow me to use the term, "happy" when I woke up this morning.

Crazy as it sounds, but I've actually proven this weird theory for myself and some other friends have also attested to such a fact that when at one point of the day you were all smiles and laughter and happy thoughts, whether by yourself of with other people, the next thing that happens is you face a problem that will totally wreck your idea of a happy day. It sometimes will make you cry or just annoyingly sad or depressed, but the next day, it's gone. Hmmm, totally strange, but still...

I just hope that nothing of that sort ruins my day today because... I dunno... I just feel... light and maybe dreamy or something. Hmmm, I'll choose the "or something".... :)

A New Hobby?!

I was feeling a little bored yesterday so I decided my fate and tried fiddling with Photoshop... Hmmm, I "vectorized" one portrait of mine, and even if it's not perfect, it's at the least, presentable... :)

I didn't even realize I could do something like that, although I have much to learn in the art of enhancing pictures, I surely have lots and lots of time, especially now that I don't have a love life to fuss with, I can spend a little more time developing skills through a hobby or by just getting a wee bit more curious than before. I've watched my ex-boyfriend edit pictures before, sure, he knows what he's doing, and I know I can do the same. Hopefully better. Hehehe, no offense.

Anyway, so I started out Photoshop by
doing vectors, I have much to learn and experiment with but as of the moment, I am more interested with vectors... hehehe!

Here's the portrait I'm telling you about...




I hope I'd have a really nice weekend coming up because I'm getting slightly bored by the moment. I'm out of the busy office since yesterday and now have felt the effect of being busy for a long time to being "vacant". Hmmm, but I rather love it than being busy because at least I can have time for myself and even have time for a darn haircut which I have been wanting to have for quite some time now. :)

Ok, see you.... :)

Crazy Thought # 2

If you had x-ray vision, but closed your eyes, could you still see?

Hehehehe!

Big Girls Don't Cry

la,da,da,da
The smell of your skin lingers on me now
You're probably on your flight back to your hometown
I need some shelter of my own protection baby
Be with myself in center, clarity
Peace, Serenity

I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightening out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their
blanket
But I've gotta move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry,
Don't cry,
Don't cry

The path that I'm walking, I must go alone
I must take the baby steps till I'm full grown,full
grown
Fairy tales don't always have a happy ending do they
And I for see the dark ahead if I stay

I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightening out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their
blanket

But I've gotta move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry

Like a little school mate in the school yard
We'll play jacks and Uno cards
I'll be your best friend and you'll be my
valentine
Yes you can hold my hand if you want to
'cause I wanna hold yours too
We'll be playmates and lovers and share our secret
worlds
But it's time for me to go home
It's getting late, dark outside
I need to be with myself in center, clarity
Peace, Serenity

I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightening out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their
blanket
But I've gotta get a move on with my life
It's time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cry,
Don't cry,
Don't cry

La Da Da Da Da Da (more)

Feeling Crazy...

Yup, I'm feeling a little crazy right now.. for the past two days to be exact...

Hmmm, and don't ask me why or don't even try to, I can't and won't give you a straight answer...

Or maybe I'll just smile at you, but I'm definite I won't be able to keep a straight face... I'm so crazy today...

And oh, one thing more, I overslept yesterday... By the time I woke up, it was time or afternoon snacks... so for us Filipinos, that's about 3pm... hehe! amazing...

Anyway, I'm still feeling a little giddy right now... it's not a hangover, mind you. I just feel crazy.


:)

I'm Tired... of this Life

I don't have the strangest notion why, but I'm starting to have this weird feeling again that I'm tired of my life and that I really want to have a long, long rest, away from the world, away from acquaintances and friends and family. I want to go away to a place where I don't know anybody and where I can be who I really am and not worry about hurting people or hurting myself. I'm tired.

I'm tired of worrying about which blouse to wear, which perfume to put on; which ride to take, which dirt road to walk on. I'm getting tired of which people to be courteous with and which ones I can be myself with. I'm tired of choosing the most appropriate words to use when I can just use the ones I'm used to.

I'm tired of waiting for a short delay before I react to some things and to what others are doing or saying, being afraid of their counter-reactions and what others might say. I'm tired of thinking things over, wishing I'm in another dimension of time and space where I can undo or redo things that I chose to.

I'm tired of trying to be someone else, when I am already what I am; I'm tired of choosing who I'm going to be good with or who I'm going to be stubborn with. I'm definitely tired of being under the shadow of a certain person, when all facts point to the truth. I'm tired, tired of living my life, tired of trying to live another's.

Can't there be such a thing as a life remote control? Where you can just press a button and voila! You can watch your life play in front you in fast forward or in slow motion and then choose to edit it out, replay it or just move on forward or pause it for quite a while. I wish I'm in another lifetime. Then maybe, I may not be as tired as I am now.