because...Because I'm thinking of not spending the New Year with them. Don't fret just yet, I was just STILL thinking about it.
I might of course change my mind in the course of 15 to 20 days.
Thursday, November 29, 2007
A Christmas Party Too Late
We just heard this morning that our company Christmas Party is temporarily being moved to Dec 23. Bummer. I dislike the idea because that would mean that if and only if I decide to join the said occasion, I should also move my travel back home another day, which means, I would get to spend lesser time with my family this season. And that, I don't like because...
Because I'm thinking of not spending the New Year with them. Don't fret just yet, I was just STILL thinking about it.
I might of course change my mind in the course of 15 to 20 days.
because...Because I'm thinking of not spending the New Year with them. Don't fret just yet, I was just STILL thinking about it.
I might of course change my mind in the course of 15 to 20 days.
Wednesday, November 28, 2007
Government Agency Exemplifies Immature Judgment & Unfair Decision-making which Others Find Laudable
I personally feel that it's somewhat idiotic to base decisions on something that's just "irregular". Something more solid and logical should be made basis.
If you guys don't want people to pass board exams, then don't give them in the first place. Or if that statement happened to stike a nerve, why not TRY TO ANSWER THE ACTUAL EXAM FIRST TO SEE IF IT'S REALLY EASY OR NOT.
Professionals? Yeah, right. Prove it to me.
PRC orders retake of parts of Civil Engineering exam
THE Professional Regulation Commission has ordered a retake in the subjects Hydraulics and Geotechnical Engineering and Structural Engineering and Construction in the November 17 and 18, 2007, civil engineer licensure examination given by the Board of Civil Engineering.
The commission nullified examination results in the two subjects after it discovered “irregularities” in the results. A total of 4,782 examinees took the licensure examination in eight test centers nationwide—Manila, Baguio, Cagayan de Oro, Cebu, Davao, Iloilo, Legazpi and Tacloban.
The commission, in a statement, said the examination results in Hydraulics and Geotechnical Engineering were “statistically improbable,” pointing to the “unusually” high grades obtained by the examinees. In Structural Engineering and Construction, the commission added, two examinees were caught in possession of mobile phones, which were confiscated by an agent of the National Bureau of Investigation (NBI). The mobile phones were later turned over to the commission. It said it had discovered that one of the mobile phones contained answers to 30 examination questions wherein 21 answers were found to be correct.
The commission reported the irregularities and its decision to order a retake after nullifying the results in the two subjects to Secretary Arturo Brion of the Department of Labor and Employment. The statement said Brion “lauded [its] swift and decisive action.”
The commission referred the matter to the NBI, suggesting that the bureau conduct an investigation, including the identification of the people behind the irregularities.
To afford the examinees the earliest possible opportunity to retake the examination in the two subjects without need for further review class, the commission said it will administer the test on January 12, 2008, without need to pay the examination fee. The commission added that the examinees shall no longer take the subject Mathematics, Surveying and Transportation Engineering.
Examination details on the new school where the test will be conducted and room assignment will be posted at the commission’s central and regional offices and on its website.
The examinees are required to present their notice of admission, which they used in the November 17 and 18, 2007, examination, on the day of the retake.
Last year, the Professional Regulatory Commission also discovered irregularities in the licensure examination for nurses. Examinees retook parts of the test early this year.
--The Manila Times
Monday, November 26, 2007
What Men & Fever Have in Common
Found this in Chai's blog which was written by Mara... hehehe... enjoy reading!
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What men and fever have in common.
Being the medical student that I am, I would like to apply my miniscule knowledge by classifying the taken men that have lingered in my life using the different types of fever. Haha.
Definition of terms:
* recall that the normal body temperature is about 37 degrees.
This temperature is the BASELINE.
1. Intermittent fever - this type of fever waxes and wanes, but when it does wane, it hits the baseline. Meaning, it goes back to the normal body temperature of 37 degrees after every febrile episode, then it goes up again.
2. Remittent fever - although this type of fever also waxes and wanes, your temperature NEVER hits the baseline. Thus, your temperature never normalizes despite the many ups and downs of your temperature.
3. Relapsing fever - this fever alternates with days, or even weeks, with baseline temperature.
4. Continuous fever - speaks for itself doesn't it? The fever that never goes down.
So, let me attempt to be profound. Haha. Am I trying to liken taken men to fever because taken men are in some ways, a disease? Haha. Perhaps.
As I mentioned, there is a baseline temperature. And of course what's the baseline in this case study? FRIENDSHIP!
1. The intermittent man
Temporal profile of the relationship: Months
Character profile of the man: immature.
The "honeymoon phase" of a relationship is filled with extremes. When you love, you love, but when you hate, all hell WILL break lose. This is why intermittent men are so fickle. Example, girlfriend starts to be demanding. Girlfriend begins to be ultra jealous. Intermittent guy starts to chicken out. Oh no, this is not the girl i fell in love with. Then he starts to seek comfort from a meantime girl. Why can't she be like you? I wish I pursued you instead of her. What will happen if I leave her? Do we have a chance? The barrage of flatteries carry on for days. He texts you the WHOLE day, asks if you've eaten, what you're doing. He tells you he misses you. He calls you up before going to sleep. And then, he STOPS. Why? Most likely because the girlfriend and him are chummy chums again. But the reason why it's intermittent is that when you see each other in school, when you see him and the girlfriend together, you act and you genuinely feel, that it's okay. You don't feel any pain when you see them eating, studying, laughing. It's because although there are some spikes of chemistry, you always return to the baseline. You always fall back to good old reliable friendship. And, the cycle starts again.
2. The remittent man
Oh, this man is HOT. He knows what he's got - the looks, the charisma, and he flaunts them like there is no tomorrow. He knows what women want and attacks until you're beaten senseless. When you're together, he treats you like a princess. But when you're apart, he doesn't text you the way the intermittent guy did, and because of the longer temporal profile of his relationship, he tends to be drop hints that you truly are just a meantime girl. Unlike the intermittent man, he deludes you less. Maybe our children will end up together. Funny thing is, despite the bombs he drops on your heart, he still knows the perfect things to say to keep you coming back for more. Sometimes, when I'm with my girlfriend, all I do is think of you, wish that she was you.. These are times I just sleep the night away, because I wish it was your arms around me, not hers.. You KNOW it's a line. You KNOW that he will NEVER leave her for you. But, this guy is SO damn good, that you lose your defenses despite your arrogant beliefs that YOU KNOW BETTER. Why remittent? You NEVER hit friendship. Just seeing the girlfriend tears you apart. Imagine what seeing them together will do to your sanity. Because you have TOO MUCH chemistry, when things end, and you KNOW it will, you will never see each other in the same light again. Unlike intermittent guy's girlfriend whom you can actually have a decent conversation with, you CANNOT look remittent guy's girlfriend in the eye because you are guilty. Because sometimes, the worst kind of cheating is NOT holding hands, NOT kissing, NOT even THAT deed. Sometimes the worst kind, is FALLING IN LOVE WITH SOMEONE ELSE. And remittent guy, because of his several, SEVERAL needs, falls in love easily with the girls who succumb to his power. I love you. Stupid oaf uses this carelessly. He may or may not mean it. But it doesn't matter. Still, more stupid meantime girl falls for it. Falls for HIM. Cycle repeats itself, never hitting baseline, and you always pray that it wont. Coz you never want to be "JUST FRIENDS".
3. The relapsing man
This man is a true blue player. The one thing that's good about him is, hindi siya nambobola. He doesn't believe in having to sweep a girl off her feet, doesn't see the need for preliminaries. You are first and foremost friends. Well, with some benefits. He may or may not be committed, but unlike the abovementioned two, his conscience is more hypofunctioning, thus he has more girls than they ever will in their lifetimes. Relapsing because he wouldn't text for weeks, just to suddenly appear out of the blue. Like the intermittent guy, your friendship with the relapsing man is rock-solid. However, with relapsing man, the lines are crystal clear. There are no expectations, no delusions of grandeur, no misplaced affcetions. You both seek each other out just for the company, and there are absolutely no strings attached. You know all the girls he's involved with, and he knows all the guys you're seeing. You laugh at each other's conquests, talk about each other's relationships. It's the simplest arrangement of all. You have no illusions of ever being with him, of ever sharing something real with him. You know what kind of person he is, and he knows what kind of person you are. Others would call him, the alcohol ball. If there's a stress ball, there's an alcohol ball. You get the picture.
4. The continuous man
You definitely broke his heart. And chances are, he never really recovered. You haven't seen each other for years. He has asked to see you several occasions, but you never really agree. Since you were the one who did the leaving, you know that you're in much better shape than he is. Maybe you don't want to see another human being hurt so tragically. Or maybe you just don't want to explain why you left him in the first place. Either way, you're really not into seeing him again. Then you decide, What the hell, we shared something, the least we can do is be friends again. So you see him again and WHAM. Big mistake. Despite the fact that he knows you're over him, the fact that you obviously are seeing other people, and the very IMPORTANT fact that he HAS A GIRLFRIEND, he constantly texts, constantly asks to see you.. Well you get the picture, he's constant, continuous. Tell him you'd go back to him and he'll drop his girl for you in a heartbeat. But you NEVER do. Because life was never meant to be THAT easy.
So, what kind of a fever are you?
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What men and fever have in common.
Being the medical student that I am, I would like to apply my miniscule knowledge by classifying the taken men that have lingered in my life using the different types of fever. Haha.
Definition of terms:
* recall that the normal body temperature is about 37 degrees.
This temperature is the BASELINE.
1. Intermittent fever - this type of fever waxes and wanes, but when it does wane, it hits the baseline. Meaning, it goes back to the normal body temperature of 37 degrees after every febrile episode, then it goes up again.
2. Remittent fever - although this type of fever also waxes and wanes, your temperature NEVER hits the baseline. Thus, your temperature never normalizes despite the many ups and downs of your temperature.
3. Relapsing fever - this fever alternates with days, or even weeks, with baseline temperature.
4. Continuous fever - speaks for itself doesn't it? The fever that never goes down.
So, let me attempt to be profound. Haha. Am I trying to liken taken men to fever because taken men are in some ways, a disease? Haha. Perhaps.
As I mentioned, there is a baseline temperature. And of course what's the baseline in this case study? FRIENDSHIP!
1. The intermittent man
Temporal profile of the relationship: Months
Character profile of the man: immature.
The "honeymoon phase" of a relationship is filled with extremes. When you love, you love, but when you hate, all hell WILL break lose. This is why intermittent men are so fickle. Example, girlfriend starts to be demanding. Girlfriend begins to be ultra jealous. Intermittent guy starts to chicken out. Oh no, this is not the girl i fell in love with. Then he starts to seek comfort from a meantime girl. Why can't she be like you? I wish I pursued you instead of her. What will happen if I leave her? Do we have a chance? The barrage of flatteries carry on for days. He texts you the WHOLE day, asks if you've eaten, what you're doing. He tells you he misses you. He calls you up before going to sleep. And then, he STOPS. Why? Most likely because the girlfriend and him are chummy chums again. But the reason why it's intermittent is that when you see each other in school, when you see him and the girlfriend together, you act and you genuinely feel, that it's okay. You don't feel any pain when you see them eating, studying, laughing. It's because although there are some spikes of chemistry, you always return to the baseline. You always fall back to good old reliable friendship. And, the cycle starts again.
2. The remittent man
- Temporal profile of his relationship: Years
- Character profile of the man: expert. Several girls on the side and not likely to stop anytime in this life.
Oh, this man is HOT. He knows what he's got - the looks, the charisma, and he flaunts them like there is no tomorrow. He knows what women want and attacks until you're beaten senseless. When you're together, he treats you like a princess. But when you're apart, he doesn't text you the way the intermittent guy did, and because of the longer temporal profile of his relationship, he tends to be drop hints that you truly are just a meantime girl. Unlike the intermittent man, he deludes you less. Maybe our children will end up together. Funny thing is, despite the bombs he drops on your heart, he still knows the perfect things to say to keep you coming back for more. Sometimes, when I'm with my girlfriend, all I do is think of you, wish that she was you.. These are times I just sleep the night away, because I wish it was your arms around me, not hers.. You KNOW it's a line. You KNOW that he will NEVER leave her for you. But, this guy is SO damn good, that you lose your defenses despite your arrogant beliefs that YOU KNOW BETTER. Why remittent? You NEVER hit friendship. Just seeing the girlfriend tears you apart. Imagine what seeing them together will do to your sanity. Because you have TOO MUCH chemistry, when things end, and you KNOW it will, you will never see each other in the same light again. Unlike intermittent guy's girlfriend whom you can actually have a decent conversation with, you CANNOT look remittent guy's girlfriend in the eye because you are guilty. Because sometimes, the worst kind of cheating is NOT holding hands, NOT kissing, NOT even THAT deed. Sometimes the worst kind, is FALLING IN LOVE WITH SOMEONE ELSE. And remittent guy, because of his several, SEVERAL needs, falls in love easily with the girls who succumb to his power. I love you. Stupid oaf uses this carelessly. He may or may not mean it. But it doesn't matter. Still, more stupid meantime girl falls for it. Falls for HIM. Cycle repeats itself, never hitting baseline, and you always pray that it wont. Coz you never want to be "JUST FRIENDS".
3. The relapsing man
- Temporal profile of the relationship: Variable. May even have more than one girlfriend
- Character profile of the man: smug. If love was a game, he invented it.
This man is a true blue player. The one thing that's good about him is, hindi siya nambobola. He doesn't believe in having to sweep a girl off her feet, doesn't see the need for preliminaries. You are first and foremost friends. Well, with some benefits. He may or may not be committed, but unlike the abovementioned two, his conscience is more hypofunctioning, thus he has more girls than they ever will in their lifetimes. Relapsing because he wouldn't text for weeks, just to suddenly appear out of the blue. Like the intermittent guy, your friendship with the relapsing man is rock-solid. However, with relapsing man, the lines are crystal clear. There are no expectations, no delusions of grandeur, no misplaced affcetions. You both seek each other out just for the company, and there are absolutely no strings attached. You know all the girls he's involved with, and he knows all the guys you're seeing. You laugh at each other's conquests, talk about each other's relationships. It's the simplest arrangement of all. You have no illusions of ever being with him, of ever sharing something real with him. You know what kind of person he is, and he knows what kind of person you are. Others would call him, the alcohol ball. If there's a stress ball, there's an alcohol ball. You get the picture.
4. The continuous man
- Temporal profile of the relationship: Variable.
- Character profile of the man: disillusioned. Actually believes that you are his ONE TRUE LOVE.
You definitely broke his heart. And chances are, he never really recovered. You haven't seen each other for years. He has asked to see you several occasions, but you never really agree. Since you were the one who did the leaving, you know that you're in much better shape than he is. Maybe you don't want to see another human being hurt so tragically. Or maybe you just don't want to explain why you left him in the first place. Either way, you're really not into seeing him again. Then you decide, What the hell, we shared something, the least we can do is be friends again. So you see him again and WHAM. Big mistake. Despite the fact that he knows you're over him, the fact that you obviously are seeing other people, and the very IMPORTANT fact that he HAS A GIRLFRIEND, he constantly texts, constantly asks to see you.. Well you get the picture, he's constant, continuous. Tell him you'd go back to him and he'll drop his girl for you in a heartbeat. But you NEVER do. Because life was never meant to be THAT easy.
So, what kind of a fever are you?
Feeling:Terrible
I'm not feeling very well today. And for all the care in the world, I have no idea why I'm not feeling well. And I think I'm not making much sense right now.
My head's starting to throb already.I just hope it doesn't get to be a full-blown migraine attack because I'm starting to get fed up with the medications I try to take to ease the pain. I guess I'd have to upgrade my eyeglasses asap. Hmmm. I was planning on waiting until Christmas to do that, but my eyes are now on strike. I've been having migraine attacks for the past 3 months already. Even if some of those migraines were brought about by stress and too much thinking/worrying, I'd still vote for the eyeglass upgrade.
I also didn't want to take a quick after lunch nap, because then my body wouold really like the break and will then force me to do myself a favor and go to a deep REM sleep - which I definitely cannot do while I'm in the office. Poor me. Hmph.
Anyway, guess I'd have to cut this post short. Need to rest my eyes a bit.
My head's starting to throb already.I just hope it doesn't get to be a full-blown migraine attack because I'm starting to get fed up with the medications I try to take to ease the pain. I guess I'd have to upgrade my eyeglasses asap. Hmmm. I was planning on waiting until Christmas to do that, but my eyes are now on strike. I've been having migraine attacks for the past 3 months already. Even if some of those migraines were brought about by stress and too much thinking/worrying, I'd still vote for the eyeglass upgrade.
I also didn't want to take a quick after lunch nap, because then my body wouold really like the break and will then force me to do myself a favor and go to a deep REM sleep - which I definitely cannot do while I'm in the office. Poor me. Hmph.
Anyway, guess I'd have to cut this post short. Need to rest my eyes a bit.
Saturday, November 24, 2007
Calm Yourself Down!
It's a pretty amusing day today... Started my day anxiously, v'been a little worried how the confrontation with the boss and the auditee would turn out - apparently, it went well. More then well... 
I've been a little paranoid because it was actually going to be the first time it will happen for me, the auditee, the boss and the auditor (that's me) will have a "confrontation" and these things usually are pretty bloody. Hehe, good thing I was nervous as hell... Hahaha, joke.
Yeah, I was nervous as hell, my whole body was trembling, my hands were shaking while I was talking, and my voice also shook a bit. But a little later, I started calming down, but the process was not fast enough because the meeting already ended and I was still shaking. hahaha, tapang-tapangan ang show.
Anyway, it was okay, think my recommendations are going to be taken seriously, have to watch my back though from now own because I again saw how these managers will got to lengths just to save their slimy little butts...
Anyway, have to go... Need to relaw a little or else I'm gonna have a heart attack.
I've been a little paranoid because it was actually going to be the first time it will happen for me, the auditee, the boss and the auditor (that's me) will have a "confrontation" and these things usually are pretty bloody. Hehe, good thing I was nervous as hell... Hahaha, joke.
Yeah, I was nervous as hell, my whole body was trembling, my hands were shaking while I was talking, and my voice also shook a bit. But a little later, I started calming down, but the process was not fast enough because the meeting already ended and I was still shaking. hahaha, tapang-tapangan ang show.
Anyway, it was okay, think my recommendations are going to be taken seriously, have to watch my back though from now own because I again saw how these managers will got to lengths just to save their slimy little butts...
Anyway, have to go... Need to relaw a little or else I'm gonna have a heart attack.
Friday, November 23, 2007
If You Want it YOUR Way, DO IT YOURSELF!!!!
This post is dedicated to the one and only most annoying Department Head known for saying one thing while she's face to face with you and then (pick one)
CRAZY WOMAN!
Don't you realize that almost every other department head and manager in this fu**ing company hates you and your guts (given that you even have any) because you ARE SO PLASTIC!!!
GRRRRHHHH!!!
I am actually trembling because of rage for this woman! You are so hated right now!
But trust me, eventually, you won't be worth anything at all.
- not saying anything because she doesn't have the gutts to,
- says the things SHE wants done when the people who worked and perspired beforehand are no longer in the room,
- says a different thing when you're gone,
- or denying altogether that she ever said anything at all.
CRAZY WOMAN!
Don't you realize that almost every other department head and manager in this fu**ing company hates you and your guts (given that you even have any) because you ARE SO PLASTIC!!!
GRRRRHHHH!!! I am actually trembling because of rage for this woman! You are so hated right now!
But trust me, eventually, you won't be worth anything at all.
Wednesday, November 21, 2007
All in a Day's...Work?
Hmmm, saw this in some other person's blog... hehehe...
the site says I have a hidden elevn name, and it's - Idril Nólatári
and a hobbit name which is - Daisy Moss of Lake-By-Downs
hahaha, weird... but okay...
Another is this:
the site says I have a hidden elevn name, and it's - Idril Nólatári
and a hobbit name which is - Daisy Moss of Lake-By-Downs
hahaha, weird... but okay...
Another is this:
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| You scored as Dragon You have a fiery soul, and your temper is easily provoked. People are afraid of you sometimes. Just cool it down a little sometimes and everything will be great!! :D
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Don't Be Such an Ass
Remember the bullies during elementary? or high school? or even colege?
I think this story can all teach them a lesson.... hehehe... please read on...
Having A Baaaad Day
A little guy is sitting at the bar just staring at his drink for half an hour when this big trouble-making biker steps next to him, grabs his drink and gulps it down in one swing.
The poor little guy starts crying.
"Come on, man. I'm just giving you a hard time," the biker says.
"I didn't think you'd CRY. I can't stand to see a man cry."
"This is the worst day of my life," says the little guy between sobs...
"I can't do anything right.
I overslept and was late to an important meeting, so my boss fired me. When I went to the parking lot, I found my car was stolen and I don't have any insurance. I left my wallet in the cab I took home. I found my wife in bed with the gardener and my dog bit me. So, I came to this bar trying to work up the courage to put an end to my life, and then you show up and drink the damn poison."
I think this story can all teach them a lesson.... hehehe... please read on...
Having A Baaaad Day
A little guy is sitting at the bar just staring at his drink for half an hour when this big trouble-making biker steps next to him, grabs his drink and gulps it down in one swing.
The poor little guy starts crying.
"Come on, man. I'm just giving you a hard time," the biker says.
"I didn't think you'd CRY. I can't stand to see a man cry."
"This is the worst day of my life," says the little guy between sobs...
"I can't do anything right.
I overslept and was late to an important meeting, so my boss fired me. When I went to the parking lot, I found my car was stolen and I don't have any insurance. I left my wallet in the cab I took home. I found my wife in bed with the gardener and my dog bit me. So, I came to this bar trying to work up the courage to put an end to my life, and then you show up and drink the damn poison."
Thursday, November 15, 2007
Frea*ing Brownouts
I believe...
that....
the...
ENGINEERING department sucks!
We've been experiencing on-off-on-off times for just about 2 hours now, and there has been, let me see, 5 times that the power went out, and just about the same number of times that it came back. It just came back on as I'm typing this post. I have no idea why it's happening, hopefully the "engineers" know what's happening, I think I heard something like there has been a power problem in a nearby city/municipality or whatever. Hmmm. To think that the President of the whole company is actually here for a series of serious meetings.
Good thing I'm using a laptop and a UPS. Hahaha... You can hate me now.
that....
the...
ENGINEERING department sucks!
We've been experiencing on-off-on-off times for just about 2 hours now, and there has been, let me see, 5 times that the power went out, and just about the same number of times that it came back. It just came back on as I'm typing this post. I have no idea why it's happening, hopefully the "engineers" know what's happening, I think I heard something like there has been a power problem in a nearby city/municipality or whatever. Hmmm. To think that the President of the whole company is actually here for a series of serious meetings.
Good thing I'm using a laptop and a UPS. Hahaha... You can hate me now.
Running Out of Happy Thoughts
Hmmm, last night I realized as I stared blankly at this wooden make-shift bench in front of my door - I'm running out of happy thoughts. Happy thoughts? What the hell are they for? This started when a friend of mine advised me to just think of happy thoughts to excape being in the speedy downhill path of depression. Scary huh? But that advice proved to be one that came straight from heaven. It has actually helped me rediscover my interest in writing and expressing whatever it is that I'm thinking and feeling - saved me the cost of getting professional help.
And I get to practice using the language again which I managed to use less and less in the workplace or in my room. (Although sometimes I feel more comfortable talking to myself in English)Anyway, going back, yep, I'm running out of happy thoughts, and watching all these series(es) on tv can't give me a fresh supply. And I just can't turn off this uncanny ability to play and replay things in my mind - vividly, I might add - 'coz I just can't. Now I can picture out my conscience screaming frantically and hysterically waving her arms in the air trying to get my attention and saying,"For Pete's sake girl, leave it alone or you'll die before you reach 40!"
Ooops, time to go to work. Enough of the happy thoughts. People just can't have everything they want and be happy. There will always be a compromise.Wednesday, November 14, 2007
It's F*cking Freezing in Here!
mood? wanna still ask about my mood?
It's so darn freezing here inside my office and I can still get my fingers to tiptap at my keyboard to write this stupid post. Ha! That's perseverance for you.
Think I'm gonna buzz out of this hole for a bit and get myself a hot cup of instant coffee - the only version I can afford while it isn't quite payday...
It's so darn freezing here inside my office and I can still get my fingers to tiptap at my keyboard to write this stupid post. Ha! That's perseverance for you.
Think I'm gonna buzz out of this hole for a bit and get myself a hot cup of instant coffee - the only version I can afford while it isn't quite payday...
What If
mood? - I'm full and I'm kinda crazy... 
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What If (by Babyface)
I ran into a friend of yours the other day
And I asked her how you been
She said my girl is fine jus bought a house
Got a job a real good man
I told her I was glad for u that’s wonderful
But does she ever ask bout me
She said shes happy with her life right now
Let her go let her be
And I told myself I would
but something in my heart would just not let you go
I just want to know
What if we were wrong about each other
what if you were really made for me
what if we were supposed to be together
would that not mean anything
what if that was supposed to be my house
that you go home to everyday
how can you be sure that things are better
if you cant be sure your heart ain’t still here with me
Still wanting me
Your friend asked me if there was some1 special
in my life that I was seeing
I told her there was no1 in particular
There’s jus I myself and me
I told her that I dream of you quite often
she jus cut her eyes at me
she said you’ve got a home you’re very happy
so jus stop your meddling
I told her that I won't
I said that things were cool
but I guess I was wrong
I still cant move on
What if we were wrong about each other
what if you were really made for me
what if we were supposed to be together
would that not mean anything
what if that was supposed to be my house
that you go home to everyday
how can you be sure that things are better
if you cant be sure your heart ain’t still here with me
Still wanting me
Now that could be my car
that could be my house
that could be my baby boy
that you’re nursing
that could be the trash
That I always take out
that could be the chair
I love to chill in
That could be my food on the table at the end of the day
hugs and the kisses all the love being made
what the hell do u expect me to say
what if its really supposed be this way
what if you’re really supposed to be with me
What if we were wrong about each other
what if you were really made for me
what if we were supposed to be together
would that not mean anything
what if that was supposed to be my house
that you go home to everyday
how can you be sure that things are better
if you cant be sure your heart ain’t still here with me
Still wanting me
What if we were wrong about each other
what if you were really made for me
what if we were supposed to be together
would that not mean anything
what if that was supposed to be my house
that you go home to everyday
how can you be sure that things are better
if you cant be sure your heart ain’t still here with me
Still wanting me
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What If (by Babyface)
I ran into a friend of yours the other day
And I asked her how you been
She said my girl is fine jus bought a house
Got a job a real good man
I told her I was glad for u that’s wonderful
But does she ever ask bout me
She said shes happy with her life right now
Let her go let her be
And I told myself I would
but something in my heart would just not let you go
I just want to know
What if we were wrong about each other
what if you were really made for me
what if we were supposed to be together
would that not mean anything
what if that was supposed to be my house
that you go home to everyday
how can you be sure that things are better
if you cant be sure your heart ain’t still here with me
Still wanting me
Your friend asked me if there was some1 special
in my life that I was seeing
I told her there was no1 in particular
There’s jus I myself and me
I told her that I dream of you quite often
she jus cut her eyes at me
she said you’ve got a home you’re very happy
so jus stop your meddling
I told her that I won't
I said that things were cool
but I guess I was wrong
I still cant move on
What if we were wrong about each other
what if you were really made for me
what if we were supposed to be together
would that not mean anything
what if that was supposed to be my house
that you go home to everyday
how can you be sure that things are better
if you cant be sure your heart ain’t still here with me
Still wanting me
Now that could be my car
that could be my house
that could be my baby boy
that you’re nursing
that could be the trash
That I always take out
that could be the chair
I love to chill in
That could be my food on the table at the end of the day
hugs and the kisses all the love being made
what the hell do u expect me to say
what if its really supposed be this way
what if you’re really supposed to be with me
What if we were wrong about each other
what if you were really made for me
what if we were supposed to be together
would that not mean anything
what if that was supposed to be my house
that you go home to everyday
how can you be sure that things are better
if you cant be sure your heart ain’t still here with me
Still wanting me
What if we were wrong about each other
what if you were really made for me
what if we were supposed to be together
would that not mean anything
what if that was supposed to be my house
that you go home to everyday
how can you be sure that things are better
if you cant be sure your heart ain’t still here with me
Still wanting me
Monday, November 12, 2007
Top 10 Reasons to Smile before 12noon!
mood: 
Note: NOT in particular order. ;)
Note: NOT in particular order. ;)
- My chikadora officemate. And all the chismis that she knows about the happenings in the office, the employees and the whole the company itself.
- Coffee. Makes me smile anytime and everytime I have some; not really a coffee addict though, just love it. but i'm thinking of minimizing my consumption nowadays.
- Chocolate. Any form it comes in, whether a chocolate drink, candy, biscuits, whatever, as long as it's chocolate!
- Inday jokes. I remembered this super smart Inday and decided to search for some posted collection of her speeches and I had such a good time reading them! Even Kris Aquino and Boy Abunda reportedly had to undergo nose bleeding!
- Blogs. My blogs, my precious blogs. Hehehe. I have 3 active blogs which basically have the same contents, but different looks and designs. I have a different set of audience and readers for each, so I'm quite happy despite of the fact that I don't earn any from the ads from adsense and some other things that claim they can provide additional income. Hmph.
- TV. This was before I hurried to the office. I usually turn on my tv so that something provides some sort of sound while I'm preparing to scurry to my cave in the hotel.
- Officemates. Not that I like seeing them per se, but i love hearing the stupid things they do to get attention and have an impression that they're rooting for Ms Congeniality.
- Radio. I can hear a blurred version of the radio that they leave on just outside my office window. The glass actually slurs whatever is playing, but it's audible.
- Telephone. I admire Alexander Graham Bell for this. It's one way of communicating with my chikadora officemate without physically going to her table. Minimizes the intrigues and office work backlog.
- Internet. Thank God for internet. It's one way of disregarding the chaos in my mind. My way of publishing my thoughts for the world to read and judge if they wanted to. And as far a clouded mind goes, it gives me some distraction of thinking of things I shouldn't be thinking of whole day long.
Friday, November 9, 2007
Perceived Good. So What's Real?
As always, there have been several misconceptions in life. Mostly are perceived as good, like if you work in this certain company, everybody - and I mean everybody- thinks you have such a big salary just because of the name of the company. Careful. That can be the deadliest misconception you can ever believe in your whole life. Especially if you work where I do.
Most of the people I know, closely or not, all think that my company gives out such hefty salaries. But wait! You're all wrong. Unless you're a manager, a corporate director, someone very close to the higher ranking officers, or someone naturally "sip-sip", or trying to be one just to ride on with the salary-increase-wave, you're bound to slightly enjoy a meager pay. Big enough to sustain you 'til the next payday, but at least not small enough to call it minimum wage rate. Hmmm.
I admit, I sometimes get irked at people - even friends - who immediately presume that I have a huge salary. Sometimes it just blows my top off because they point it out as if I'm the only one who doesn't know it as a fact as true as I'm alive or that Chokoleit is gay. And if I try to explain it all to them, they just nod just to make me stop talking. They brush it off as if I was just making up the story so they can't force me to pay for dinner or something. And they still believe with all their hearts that my company pays good. Yeah right. And the next time we get together, we end up having the same conversation again, with the same reactions - which actually pisses me off a lot more - they just can't get the point. If I'm not in the mood to argue, good for all of us. It spares them the effort to listen to my explanations and I don't waste much of my energy re-explaining things - which I'd probably repeat the next week, or month, whichever. Craziness is common nowadays. Good thing I've been a bit crazy for a long time already - I think it was built-in.
*smirk*
Most of the people I know, closely or not, all think that my company gives out such hefty salaries. But wait! You're all wrong. Unless you're a manager, a corporate director, someone very close to the higher ranking officers, or someone naturally "sip-sip", or trying to be one just to ride on with the salary-increase-wave, you're bound to slightly enjoy a meager pay. Big enough to sustain you 'til the next payday, but at least not small enough to call it minimum wage rate. Hmmm.
I admit, I sometimes get irked at people - even friends - who immediately presume that I have a huge salary. Sometimes it just blows my top off because they point it out as if I'm the only one who doesn't know it as a fact as true as I'm alive or that Chokoleit is gay. And if I try to explain it all to them, they just nod just to make me stop talking. They brush it off as if I was just making up the story so they can't force me to pay for dinner or something. And they still believe with all their hearts that my company pays good. Yeah right. And the next time we get together, we end up having the same conversation again, with the same reactions - which actually pisses me off a lot more - they just can't get the point. If I'm not in the mood to argue, good for all of us. It spares them the effort to listen to my explanations and I don't waste much of my energy re-explaining things - which I'd probably repeat the next week, or month, whichever. Craziness is common nowadays. Good thing I've been a bit crazy for a long time already - I think it was built-in.
*smirk*
Through a Rapist's Eyes
I saw this in one of my online blogs' contacts/friends and I found it interesting to read things like these... plus it had a catchy title... read on girls, it's an FYI... you never know what occurs in other people's minds - even mine.. hehehe...
--o0o--
A group of rapists and date rapists in prison were interviewed on what they look for in a potential victim and here are some interesting facts:
1] The first thing men look for in a potential victim is hairstyle. They are most likely to go after a woman w ith a ponytail, bun, braid or other hairstyle that can easily be grabbed. They are also likely to go after a woman with long hair. Women with short hair are not common targets.
2] The second thing men look for is clothing. They will look for women whose clothing is easy to remove quickly. Many of them carry scissors around to cut clothing.
3] They also look for women on their cell phone, searching through their purse or doing other activities while walking because they are off guard and can be easily overpowered.
4] The number one place women are abducted from/attacked at is a grocery store parking lot.
5] Number two are office parking lots/garages.
6] Number three are public restrooms.
7] The thing about these men is that they are looking to grab a woman and quickly move her to a second location where they don't have to worry about getting caught.
8] If you put up any kind of a fight at all, they get discouraged because it only takes a minute or two for them to realize that going after you isn't worth it because it will be time-consuming.
9] These men said they would not pick on women who have umbrellas, or other similar objects that can be used from a distance, in their hands.
10] Keys are not a deterrent because you have to get really close to the attacker to use them as a weapon. So, the idea is to convince these guys you're not worth it.
POINTS THAT WE SHOULD REMEMBER:
2] If someone is coming toward you, hold out your hands in front of you and yell 'Stop!' or 'Stay back!' Most of the rapists this man talked to said they'd leave a woman alone if she yelled or showed that she would not be afraid to fight back. Again, they are looking for an EASY target.
3] If you carry pepper spray (this instructor was a huge advocate of it and carries it with him wherever he goes,) yelling 'I HAVE PEPPER SPRAY!' and holding it out will be a deterrent.
4] If someone grabs you, you can't beat them with strength but you can do it by outsmarting them. If you are grabbed around the waist from behind, pinch the attacker either under the arm between the elbow and armpit or in the upper inner thigh - HARD. One woman in a class this guy taught told him she used the underarm pinch on a guy who was trying to date rape her and was so upset she broke through the skin and tore out muscle strands the guy needed stitches. Try pinching yourself in those places as hard as you can stand it; it really hurts.
5] After the initial hit, always go for the groin. I know from a particularly unfortunate experience that if you slap a guy's parts it is extremely painful. You might think that you'll anger the guy and make him want to hurt you more, but the thing these rapists told our instructor is that they want a woman who will not cause him a lot of trouble. Start causing trouble, and he's out of there.
6] When the guy puts his hands up to you, grab his first two fingers and bend them back as far as possible with as much pressure pushing down on them as possible. The instructor did it to me without using much pressure, and I ended up on my knees and both knuckles cracked audibly.
7] Of course the things we always hear still apply. Always be aware of your surroundings, take someone with you if you can and if you see any odd behavior, don't dismiss it, go with your instincts. You may feel a little silly at the time, but you'd feel much worse if the guy really was trouble.
FINALLY, PLEASE REMEMBER THESE AS WELL ...
I know you are smart enough to know these pointers but there will be some time, when you will go "Hmm... I must remember that." After reading, forward it to someone you care about. Never hurts to be careful in this crazy world we live in.
1. Tip from Tae Kwon Do: The elbow is the strongest point on your body. If you are close enough to use it, do it.
2. Learned this from a tourist guide to New Orleans: If a robber asks for your wallet and/or purse, DO NOT HAND IT TO HIM. Toss it away from you... chances are that he is more interested in your wallet and/or purse than you and he will go for the wallet and/or purse. RUN LIKE MAD IN THE OTHER DIRECTION!
3. If you are ever thrown into the trunk of a car: Kick out the back tail lights and stick your arm out the hole and start waving like crazy. The driver won't see you but everybody else will. This has saved lives.
4. Women have a tendency to get into their cars after shopping, eating, working, etc., and just sit (doing their checkbook, or making a list, etc.) DON'T DO THIS!The predator will be watching you, and this is the perfect opportunity for him to get in on the passenger side, put a gun to your head, and tell you where to go. AS SOON AS YOU LOCK YOUR DOORS...LEAVE!
5. A few notes about getting into your car in a parking lot, or parking garage:
b. If you are parked next to a big van, enter your car from the passenger door. Most serial killers attack their victims by pulling them into their vans while the women are attempting to get into their cars.
c. Look at the car parked on the driver's side of your vehicle, and the passenger side. If a male is sitting alone in the seat nearest your car, you may want to walk back into the mall, or work, and get a guard/policeman to walk you back out. IT IS ALWAYS BETTER TO BE SAFE THAN SORRY. (And better paranoid than dead.)
6. ALWAYS take the elevator instead of the stairs. (Stairwells are horrible places to be alone and the perfect crime spot).
7. If the predator has a gun and you are not under his control, ALWAYS RUN! The predator will only hit you (a running target) 4 in 100 times. And even then, it most likely WILL NOT be a vital organ. RUN!
8. As women, we are always trying to be sympathetic: STOP IT! It may get you raped, or killed. Ted Bundy, the serial killer, was a good-looking, well educated man, who ALWAYS played on the sympathies of unsuspecting women. He walked with a cane, or a limp, and often asked "for help" into his vehicle or with his vehicle, which is when he abducted his next victim.
Thursday, November 8, 2007
Love & Life - Oh Really?
Love and Life by Albert Einstein
Sometimes in our relentless effort to find the person we love, we fail to recognize and appreciate the people who love us. We miss out on so many beautiful things simply because we allow ourselves to be enslaved by our own selfish concerns.
- this is possible. but i dont entirely believe that trying to find the person we love is ALL selfish. although there are aspects of this process that will tend to lean on the selfish side, i still think we should give the benefit of the doubt. kawawa naman eh...
Go for the man of deeds and not for the man of words, for you will find rewarding happiness, not with the man you love but with the man who loves you more.
- but still, hearing the words will give us the kilig factor once in a while, di ba?
- umm, before i was not really in favor of choose the one who loves you more, but nowadays, i'm starting to believe it's better to do so.
The best lovers are those capable of loving from a distance far enough to allow the person to grow but never too far to feel the love within your being.
- ano daw? ah, ok... yung nagbibigay ng space for growth and not the one who'll suffocate you. ok, gets na...
To let go of someone doesn't mean you have to stop loving, it only means that you allow that person to find his own happiness without expecting him to come back. Letting go is not just setting the other person free, but is also setting yourself free from all the bitterness, hatred, and anger that you keep in your heart.
- ah, that's why it's so hard to do...very few get past this stage... because there will always remain this "kurot" everytime you see, talk with, or bump into the other person, whether he/she is with another person or alone
Do not let the bitterness take away your strength and weaken your faith, and never allow pain to dishearten you; but rather let yourself grow with wisdom in bearing it.
- this i'd agree with. Amen Einstein!
You may find peace in loving someone from a distance not expecting something in return. But be careful, for this can sustain life but can never give enough room for us to grow. We can all survive with just beautiful memories of the past, but real peace and happiness come only with open acceptance of what reality is today.
- eto magulo. kanina, maganda raw yung loving from a distance kasi merong room to grow. ngayon, e hindi na hindi na advisable yung merong room to grow?! teka ha... magulo pa rin. i think... parang when you let go of the person and you keep on loving him/her from a distance and you do not expect him/her to come back, it's ok, it will help you survive for a while pero destructive naman pag tumagal because it will not help you to learn from the experience and you'll end up getting stuck with the beautiful memories instead of making new ones. you will be happier and more at peace if you learn to accept the facts whole-heartedly. (para namang horoscope ang tunog nito... **Aries... malalaglag ka sa silya mo at sasakit ang iyong tyan katatawa...**hehe...)
There comes a time in our lives when we chance upon someone so nice and beautiful and we just find ourselves so intensely attracted to that person. This feeling soon becomes a part of our everyday lives and eventually consumes our thoughts and actions. The sad part of it is when we begin to realize that this person feels nothing more for us than just a friendship.
- parang easy attraction, pero one-sided. more on you misinterpreted the goodness, sweetness and thoughtfulness of the other. friends lang pala kayo para sa kanya. **We're just friends... Showbiz!
We start our desperate attempt to get noticed and be closer, but in the end our efforts are still unrewarded and we end up being sorry for ourselves.
- hehe, dali nito... - busted!!!
You don't have to forget someone you love. What you need to learn is how to accept the verdict of reality without being bitter or sorry for yourself. Believe me, you would be better off giving that dedication and love to someone more deserving.
- why does it seem that this thought is haunting me?!
Don't let your heart run your life, be sensible and let your mind speak for itself.
- yep, either way, you still get in trouble.
Listen not only to your feelings but to reason as well. Always remember that if you lose someone today, it means that someone better is coming tomorrow. If you lose love that doesn't mean you failed in love.
- at least the last two statements are truthful. believable to say the least. and when talking o yourself, listen to all the voices going around your head, even if masyadong sarcastic or harsh yung iba. it'll turn out that they're better advisers... :) na pwedeng hindi mo rin sundin.. hehe
Cry if you have to, but make sure that tears wash away the hurt and the bitterness that the past has left with you. Let go of yesterday and love will find its way back to you. And when it does, pray that it may be the love that will stay and last a lifetime.
- huhuhu... ok, fine. crying is a little therapeutic nga naman...
There are two ways to live your life:
One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle.
- wow, hevi...
There is no mistake so painful that love cannot forgive. no past so bitter that love cannot accept.
- martyr naman, pero it's always possible.
And no love so little that we cannot start all over with.
- true. or false. i still have to find out for myself.
Sometimes in our relentless effort to find the person we love, we fail to recognize and appreciate the people who love us. We miss out on so many beautiful things simply because we allow ourselves to be enslaved by our own selfish concerns.
- this is possible. but i dont entirely believe that trying to find the person we love is ALL selfish. although there are aspects of this process that will tend to lean on the selfish side, i still think we should give the benefit of the doubt. kawawa naman eh...
Go for the man of deeds and not for the man of words, for you will find rewarding happiness, not with the man you love but with the man who loves you more.
- but still, hearing the words will give us the kilig factor once in a while, di ba?
- umm, before i was not really in favor of choose the one who loves you more, but nowadays, i'm starting to believe it's better to do so.
The best lovers are those capable of loving from a distance far enough to allow the person to grow but never too far to feel the love within your being.
- ano daw? ah, ok... yung nagbibigay ng space for growth and not the one who'll suffocate you. ok, gets na...
To let go of someone doesn't mean you have to stop loving, it only means that you allow that person to find his own happiness without expecting him to come back. Letting go is not just setting the other person free, but is also setting yourself free from all the bitterness, hatred, and anger that you keep in your heart.
- ah, that's why it's so hard to do...very few get past this stage... because there will always remain this "kurot" everytime you see, talk with, or bump into the other person, whether he/she is with another person or alone
Do not let the bitterness take away your strength and weaken your faith, and never allow pain to dishearten you; but rather let yourself grow with wisdom in bearing it.
- this i'd agree with. Amen Einstein!
You may find peace in loving someone from a distance not expecting something in return. But be careful, for this can sustain life but can never give enough room for us to grow. We can all survive with just beautiful memories of the past, but real peace and happiness come only with open acceptance of what reality is today.
- eto magulo. kanina, maganda raw yung loving from a distance kasi merong room to grow. ngayon, e hindi na hindi na advisable yung merong room to grow?! teka ha... magulo pa rin. i think... parang when you let go of the person and you keep on loving him/her from a distance and you do not expect him/her to come back, it's ok, it will help you survive for a while pero destructive naman pag tumagal because it will not help you to learn from the experience and you'll end up getting stuck with the beautiful memories instead of making new ones. you will be happier and more at peace if you learn to accept the facts whole-heartedly. (para namang horoscope ang tunog nito... **Aries... malalaglag ka sa silya mo at sasakit ang iyong tyan katatawa...**hehe...)
There comes a time in our lives when we chance upon someone so nice and beautiful and we just find ourselves so intensely attracted to that person. This feeling soon becomes a part of our everyday lives and eventually consumes our thoughts and actions. The sad part of it is when we begin to realize that this person feels nothing more for us than just a friendship.
- parang easy attraction, pero one-sided. more on you misinterpreted the goodness, sweetness and thoughtfulness of the other. friends lang pala kayo para sa kanya. **We're just friends... Showbiz!
We start our desperate attempt to get noticed and be closer, but in the end our efforts are still unrewarded and we end up being sorry for ourselves.
- hehe, dali nito... - busted!!!
You don't have to forget someone you love. What you need to learn is how to accept the verdict of reality without being bitter or sorry for yourself. Believe me, you would be better off giving that dedication and love to someone more deserving.
- why does it seem that this thought is haunting me?!
Don't let your heart run your life, be sensible and let your mind speak for itself.
- yep, either way, you still get in trouble.
Listen not only to your feelings but to reason as well. Always remember that if you lose someone today, it means that someone better is coming tomorrow. If you lose love that doesn't mean you failed in love.
- at least the last two statements are truthful. believable to say the least. and when talking o yourself, listen to all the voices going around your head, even if masyadong sarcastic or harsh yung iba. it'll turn out that they're better advisers... :) na pwedeng hindi mo rin sundin.. hehe
Cry if you have to, but make sure that tears wash away the hurt and the bitterness that the past has left with you. Let go of yesterday and love will find its way back to you. And when it does, pray that it may be the love that will stay and last a lifetime.
- huhuhu... ok, fine. crying is a little therapeutic nga naman...
There are two ways to live your life:
One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle.
- wow, hevi...
There is no mistake so painful that love cannot forgive. no past so bitter that love cannot accept.
- martyr naman, pero it's always possible.
And no love so little that we cannot start all over with.
- true. or false. i still have to find out for myself.
Wednesday, November 7, 2007
Hard as Stone, Soft as Cotton
I found this in Nelsh's multiply site, when I finished reading it, I almost broke down crying, buti nalang na-conscious ako sa malaking glass window sa harap ko kasi kitang-kita ako ng lahat ng tao pag ngumawa nalang ako bigla dito sa office....
She received this through an email and posted it in her site... Please continue reading...
---o0o---
My boyfriend and I live together for years and he is an Engineer by profession. I love him for his steady nature, and I love the warm feeling when I lean against his broad shoulders.
Three months of courtship and now, two years engaged, I would have to admit, that I am getting tired of it. The reasons of me loving him before, has now transformed into the cause of all my restlessness. I am a sentimental woman and extremely sensitive when it comes to a relationship and my feelings, I yearn for the romantic moments, like a little girl yearning for candy. My boyfriend, is my complete opposite, his lack of sensitivity, and the inability of bringing romantic
moments into our relationship has disheartened me about love. One day, I finally decided to tell him my decision, that I wanted to break up with him. "Why?" he asked, shocked. "I am tired, there are no reasons for everything in the world!" I answered.
He kept silent the whole night, seems to be in deep thought with a lighted cigarette at all times.
My feeling of disappointment only increased, here was a man who can't even express his predicament, what else can I hope from him? And finally he asked me: "What can I do to change your mind?" Somebody said it right, it's hard to change a person's personality, and I guess, I have started losing faith in him.
Looking deep into his eyes I slowly answered : "Here is the question, if you can answer and convince my heart, I will change my mind, Let's say, I want a flower located on the face of a mountain cliff, and we both are sure that picking the flower will cause your death, will you do it for me?"
He said :" I will give you your answer tomorrow.... "
My hopes just sank by listening to his response.
I woke up the next morning to find him gone, and saw a piece of paper with his scratchy handwriting, underneath a milk glass, on the dining table near the front door, that goes....
My dear,
"I would not pick that flower for you, but please
allow me to explain the reasons further.."
This first line was already breaking my heart. I
continued reading.
"When you use the computer you always mess up the Software programs, and you cry in front of the screen, I have to save my fingers so that I can help to restore the programs.
You always leave the house keys behind, thus I have to save my legs to rush home to open the door for you.
You love traveling but always lose your way in a new city, I have to save my eyes to show you the way.
You always have the cramps whenever your "good friend" approaches every month, I have to save my palms so that I can calm the cramps in your tummy.
You like to stay indoors, and I worry that you will be infected by infantile autism I have to save my mouth to tell you jokes and stories to cure your boredom.
You always stare at the computer, and that will do nothing good for your eyes, I have to save my eyes so that when we grow old, I can help to clip your nails, and help to remove those annoying white hairs. So I can also hold your hand while strolling down the beach, as you enjoy the sunshine and the beautiful sand... and tell you the colour of flowers, just like the color of the glow on your young face...
Thus, my dear, unless I am sure that there is someone who loves you more than I do... I could not pick that flower yet, and die.. "
My tears fell on the letter, and blurred the ink of his handwriting. ..
and as I continue on reading...
"Now, that you have finished reading my answer, if you are satisfied, please open the front door for I am standing outside bringing your favorite bread and fresh milk...
I rush to pull open the door, and saw his anxious face, clutching tightly with his hands, the milk
bottle and loaf of bread....
Now I am very sure that no one will ever love me as much as he does, and I have decided to leave the flower alone...
---o0o---
Awww....
She received this through an email and posted it in her site... Please continue reading...
---o0o---
My boyfriend and I live together for years and he is an Engineer by profession. I love him for his steady nature, and I love the warm feeling when I lean against his broad shoulders.
Three months of courtship and now, two years engaged, I would have to admit, that I am getting tired of it. The reasons of me loving him before, has now transformed into the cause of all my restlessness. I am a sentimental woman and extremely sensitive when it comes to a relationship and my feelings, I yearn for the romantic moments, like a little girl yearning for candy. My boyfriend, is my complete opposite, his lack of sensitivity, and the inability of bringing romantic
moments into our relationship has disheartened me about love. One day, I finally decided to tell him my decision, that I wanted to break up with him. "Why?" he asked, shocked. "I am tired, there are no reasons for everything in the world!" I answered.
He kept silent the whole night, seems to be in deep thought with a lighted cigarette at all times.
My feeling of disappointment only increased, here was a man who can't even express his predicament, what else can I hope from him? And finally he asked me: "What can I do to change your mind?" Somebody said it right, it's hard to change a person's personality, and I guess, I have started losing faith in him.
Looking deep into his eyes I slowly answered : "Here is the question, if you can answer and convince my heart, I will change my mind, Let's say, I want a flower located on the face of a mountain cliff, and we both are sure that picking the flower will cause your death, will you do it for me?"
He said :" I will give you your answer tomorrow.... "
My hopes just sank by listening to his response.
I woke up the next morning to find him gone, and saw a piece of paper with his scratchy handwriting, underneath a milk glass, on the dining table near the front door, that goes....
My dear,
"I would not pick that flower for you, but please
allow me to explain the reasons further.."
This first line was already breaking my heart. I
continued reading.
"When you use the computer you always mess up the Software programs, and you cry in front of the screen, I have to save my fingers so that I can help to restore the programs.
You always leave the house keys behind, thus I have to save my legs to rush home to open the door for you.
You love traveling but always lose your way in a new city, I have to save my eyes to show you the way.
You always have the cramps whenever your "good friend" approaches every month, I have to save my palms so that I can calm the cramps in your tummy.
You like to stay indoors, and I worry that you will be infected by infantile autism I have to save my mouth to tell you jokes and stories to cure your boredom.
You always stare at the computer, and that will do nothing good for your eyes, I have to save my eyes so that when we grow old, I can help to clip your nails, and help to remove those annoying white hairs. So I can also hold your hand while strolling down the beach, as you enjoy the sunshine and the beautiful sand... and tell you the colour of flowers, just like the color of the glow on your young face...
Thus, my dear, unless I am sure that there is someone who loves you more than I do... I could not pick that flower yet, and die.. "
My tears fell on the letter, and blurred the ink of his handwriting. ..
and as I continue on reading...
"Now, that you have finished reading my answer, if you are satisfied, please open the front door for I am standing outside bringing your favorite bread and fresh milk...
I rush to pull open the door, and saw his anxious face, clutching tightly with his hands, the milk
bottle and loaf of bread....
Now I am very sure that no one will ever love me as much as he does, and I have decided to leave the flower alone...
---o0o---
Awww....
Earthquake! Quick! Run to the Nearest Padlocked Door!
Hahahah... okay, go ahead and read the title again. Yep, you're not hallucinating, that's exactly what I posted - "Go to the nearest padlocked door." Crazy, right?
I just couldn't imagine how 40+ year olds who have been in the working class for almost 10 years or maybe more, or how managers that are presumed to have relevantly high IQs, even think of going to an exit that is clearly locked! Given the capacity to think even on times when people are all panicky because of an earthquake, the fact that our offices are located in the basement of a 20-floor building, and the fact that the company spends time and resources to conduct internal Basic Safety and Security Trainings for the employees, the most stupid idea you can EVER ever think of at this very moment is to go to the farther exit that is CLEARLY and is also KNOWN to have been padlocked for quite a long time already. I said farther because there is one exit that is not locked and is intended for emergencies that is nearer to our offices than the locked one. Hohum, i never thought people in this side of the city can be so stupid.
Ok, so benefit of the doubt:
1. What if they were already panicking, as in to the highest level of panic, and they weren't thinking clearly anymore? Hmmm. I don't know, because in my opinion, there always is one person in the group who remains clear-headed. That's a fact. In every emergency, there seems to be this divine thing that at least one of the people involved thinks clearly and rationally. Aside from that, the said earthquake was not really very strong. Although it was strong enough to leave the tables swaying a bit, it wasn't strong enough to make you go hysterical.
2. What if the clear-headed one chose to remain quiet and just let the panicked one decide because she seemed more sure? - Then they're in deep sh*t. Hahaha. And they look a lot more stupid than I thought they were.
So facts are, yes, there was an earthquake a while ago, that's about 12:30pm, right after lunch, and when we came out of the canteen to go to our office and check on things, we found about eight people in the hallway just opposite the LOCKED door, waiting. So we asked them if they felt the earthquake and what the hell they're doing in the hallway. They said yes, they felt the earthquake, and they were there because just in case it felt that the upper floors were about to cave in, they can run to the door and head for safety. And with raised eyebrows and a very skeptic and sarcastic tone, I asked: "Ha? Diha? Locked man na! Unsaon ninyo pag-gawas?"... [Ha? There? That's locked! How can you go out?] ... And I saw them all look at the door and realize that the door was really locked. You can actually imagine putting a slow motion effect and some sounds to their realization and a cartoon being inserted and laughing out loud. That's how weird they looked. And so we walked past them until one of them bravely admitted: "Bitaw, locked bitaw nah."... {"Yeah, that's right. It's locked."} Then they dispersed and went back to the office.
This event will stay in my memory for a week or so and be a joke for a little longer than a week, maybe even become word of mouth. And the panicky person will be the butt of the joke. Poor thing. So evil of me.
Tuesday, November 6, 2007
Usapang Lalake Pare...
Nakakatuwa 'to, Guys, is this true? do you really have conversations like this? As in? Share your thoughts naman, so we can be enlightened... {Charot..}
Saw this post from Teri {thanks nga pala ha} and found it really fascinating. how I wish I can witness a real conversation that runs like this. Hehehe... Minsan lang kasi iparinig ng guys sa mga girls yung ganitong mga saloobin nila... Usually pag lasing na and heartbroken...
**************
*grabe. usapang lalake*
*sindi ng yosi*
*hithit*
*buga*
Musta na, pare? Ako, okay lang. Eto. Nagmumuni-muni. Nag-iisip. Minsan talaga may mga bagay na hindi ko maintindihan. Ewan ko ba.
*hinga ng malalim*
Bakit ba ganun pare, ilang beses ko na pinag-aralan pero lagi na lang lumalabas na parang kahit 'sang anggulo mo tingnan, hindi nagiging patas para sa mga lalake ang ilang bagay pagdating sa pagmamahal.
*tingin sa stars*
Minsan naiisip ko, alam kaya ng mga babae ang hirap ng lalake na gumawa ng first move para magtapat ng pagmamahal? E yung hirap na dinadaanan sa panliligaw at pagsuyo sa mahal nya? Ang feeling ng masaktan pag nabasted?
Malamang-lamang siguro, hindi ano. Wala naman yata silang alam sa mga paghihirap naten e. Ang alam lang ata nila e mamili, manakit, at magsaya. Tingin mo?
*tingin sa malayo*
Lagi naman ganun. Una pa lang, lalake na ang naghihirap. Hassle saten ang panliligaw pero bago pa yun, kung ano pang diskarte ang gagawin naten para masabi naten sa kanila na mahal natin sila. Alam kaya nila yun? Mahirap magsabi na mahal mo na yung babae, diba?
Tapos liligawan pa naten. Patutunayan na mahal nga sila. Susuyuin to-the-max.Maghahatid sa bahay, tutulungan, sasabayan, palalamunin, pagtyatyagaan, lahat na. Kulang na lang e pagsilbihan mo nang walang sahod.
At ano ang kapalit? Well, depende sa trip nila.
Oo tol, sa trip lang nila. Wala silang pake kesehodang mahal natin talaga sila. Basta ang alam nila, pag di nila tayo trip, isang malaking HINDE ang makukuha naten, kahit umiyak pa tayo ng dugo o lumuhod sa mga asing buu-buo. Para lang silang namimili ng damit na di man lang sinusukat bago ayawan. Kaya kahit mahal na mahal na mahal na mahal natin, sorry tayo.
Hindi nila alam kung mahal mo sila. Kailangan mong maabot ang kanilang mga standards o uuwi ka lang na bad trip, iiling-iling, at minsan, luhaan. Wala tayong magagawa, marami silang alibi.
"Hindi pa 'ko ready eh.."
"Sorry pero I think we should just be friends.."
"Ha? Uhhmm..nagpapatawa ka ba? Hahahaha.."
"Better luck next time na lang muna, okay lang?"
"Give me a decade. Pag-iisipan ko muna.."
"Para lang kitang kapatid e.."
Yaddah yaddah.
Isang malaking pagsasaklob ng langit at lupa 'yon para saten.
*kuha ng bote ng beer*
*lagok*
*lunok*
At hindi lang 'yon tol. Sa pre-relationship stage pa lang yon. Pag sinagot na nila tayo, satin pa
rin ang hassle. Tayo daw ang mga lalake, tayo ang hahawak ng relasyon. Tayo ang aayos kung may gulo; tayo ang dapat magpapakabait; tayo ang magtatyaga; tayo ang magiging devoted at faithful; tayo, tayo tayo.
Sila? Ummm? Teka, isipin ko. Ayun. Sila ang magsasabi kung anong oras kayo dapat magmeet; sila ang magtetext ng mga mushy at kabalbalang texts; sila ang magdedemand sayo ng kung anu-ano; sila ang magbabawal; sila ang magsasabi kung kelan ka dapat mag-shave, kung kelan ka pwedeng tumawag sa bahay nila, kung kelan sila di dapat bad tripin dahil meron sila, at kung kelan ka korni.
Ewan. Ganun ata talaga.
*kuha ng bote ng beer*
*lagok*
*lunok*
Hindi pa yun tapos pare, dahil dapat tayo ang bahala kung ano ang magiging takbo ng relasyon. Pag maganda, edi okay. Pag may problema, kasalanan naten. Haay buhay. Minsan talaga kung tutuusin sakit sila ng ulo. Kaya lang mahal naten kaya di na natin iniintindi yun.
*hinga ng malalim*
Pero alam mo tol, feeling ko mas sincere pa tayo magmahal sa kanila. Alam mo yun, iba tayo magmahal e. Hindi lang parang laru-laro lang. Seryoso. At kung magmahal man tayo, lubus-lubusan. Mas mature. Hindi yung parang pambata lang gaya nila na kesyo magseselos-selos, iiyak-iyak, iina-inarte, dadradrama, at kung anu-ano pa. Hindi lang kababawan. Ka-mushyhan. Kababaihan. Iba tayo pag nagmahal.
*hinga ng malalim*
*tingin sa malayo ulit*
At ito pa ang pinakamasaklap.
*singhot*
Ang ending ng relasyon. Sa mga panahong 'to, either sawa na sila, hindi na tayo trip, may nahanap na silang better saten, o kaya they need a f*cking space and time muna.
Bad trip no? Wala na naman tayong choice. Sila ang masusunod. At ano pa ang kasamang hassle don? Syempre wasak na ang imahe naten. Tayo ang lalabas na may kasalanan. Na playboy. Na nagpapaiyak.
*iiling*
Tayo siyempre ang mga antagonist at sila yung mga bidang inaapi at parang mga pusang iiyak-iyak. Ang ending: mag-ooffer sila ng "friendship" kuno matapos tayong pagsawaan, lahat ng gifts naten nasa kanila, sawi tayo sa pag-ibig, "player" na ang image naten, at higit sa lahat, mag-iisip kung papaano ipagpapatuloy ang buhay. Maiiwan tayong tulala, mag-iisip kung saan nagkamali, mamomroblema sa pag-aadjust sa pagiging single, at di na naman makakatulog.
Haay buhay. Ang hirap maging lalake. Lagi ka na lang naiiwan sa ere. Ano? Hindi ka na nagsalita? In-love ka no? Ako, kamusta? Eto.Yoyosi-yosi. Bubuntong-buntong hininga. Titingin-tingin sa bituin. Mumuni-muni. Lalagok-lagok ng alak.
Ang mga babae talaga, oo!
Saturday, November 3, 2007
Me and my Migraines
I'm in the office right now, still suffering from an overnight case of migraine. Yep, that's right, overnight. This f*ckin' pain started last night and hasn't left me until now - and it's already 10:53 am! Crazy head! Grrrhhh!
As annoying as it can be, as I'm typing this, the throbbing lessens. So does this mean I have to type away my day so that I wouldn't feel too much of the migraine? Oooohhh, this is driving me crazy! I really wouldn't say it's because of the computer monitor because I'm actually using a laptop. So there's not much of that radiation. But I think my eyes are screwed up again. Maybe I really have to have my eyes checked. Hmmm... But I think that can wait, don't wanna drop a few bucks for that as of now. {it's throbbin' again...I hate it...}
Maybe it's my mellow music playing also that causes the throbbing? or.... or...... whatever.....
I wanna sleep but I can't because number 1: I'm in the office; number 2: If I lie down, my head hurts; and number 3: it's just that my head hurts.
As annoying as it can be, as I'm typing this, the throbbing lessens. So does this mean I have to type away my day so that I wouldn't feel too much of the migraine? Oooohhh, this is driving me crazy! I really wouldn't say it's because of the computer monitor because I'm actually using a laptop. So there's not much of that radiation. But I think my eyes are screwed up again. Maybe I really have to have my eyes checked. Hmmm... But I think that can wait, don't wanna drop a few bucks for that as of now. {it's throbbin' again...I hate it...}
Maybe it's my mellow music playing also that causes the throbbing? or.... or...... whatever.....
I wanna sleep but I can't because number 1: I'm in the office; number 2: If I lie down, my head hurts; and number 3: it's just that my head hurts.
Thursday, November 1, 2007
Birth and Death
Today is All Saints' Day around the world, and in my world, it's my brother's birthday.
Weird huh? How two opposite things can be related and be celebrated on the same day. One is related to death, and the other... well, obviously, to birth.
I'd have to admit, I miss my family. Really. Just wanna make me cry. Duh. I haven't actually seen them in almost a year. The last time I was with them was last Christmas. Just imagine. I know my dad misses me too, 'coz he just can't stop reminding me to go home this Christmas. Anyway, for sure, I'll be home for Christmas - I basically don't have a reason to stay here in Cebu.
Anyway, I also have a loved one who has already gone to the other side of this universe - my uncle, Tito Amiel. He died of something related to his liver. What we all knew was that he had liver serosis {i hope i have the spelling right}. And they just didn't pay much attention until one day, he just went away. That was during my review for the board exam, August 22 (of 2005) if I'm not mistaken. I was in Manila then and I remember feeling really empty and helpless, and I just cried and cried and really got frustrated that I wanted to strangle someone because I knew they just didn't do all that they could, not even when my grandma was already pleading for help. I hated that day, and will continue to. I hated several people that day and swore that I will never be like them. Swore that as much as I can, and as much as I possibly can, I will never leave my family behind nor disregard their needs especially when it's related to their health. I swore I'll never be like them. I still stand by that vow. Although the feelings have subsided as time passed, I still remember vividly how I reacted and felt when I heard that my Tito was gone. I just wanted to fly home and burn down their house! Grrrhhh!!!
Hmph. Nonetheless, I just finished editing my Multiply layout. I got really bored at home and even if it's a holiday, I'm not writing this post from my office. I just felt I was cooped in my room and wanted to be free and yet be away from people. So, I went to the office. At least I have free internet access here. And I can also edit some pictures that I use in my layouts through my laptop. Hmmm.
Think I've got to go now. I have an 8:30 show to catch in studio 23. Hehehe. Studio 23 has lots of good shows. I'm an avid fan of these american series like Grey's Anatomy, Kyle XY, Smallville (Tom Welling is sooooo super cute!), and several others, and studio 23 has reruns of these for us folks who still cannot afford cable tv.
Some of the episode though are labeled "Fresh" meaning, they're not so delayed from the actual run abroad. So there. Have to go!
Mwuah! Have a great long weekend everybody!
Weird huh? How two opposite things can be related and be celebrated on the same day. One is related to death, and the other... well, obviously, to birth.
I'd have to admit, I miss my family. Really. Just wanna make me cry. Duh. I haven't actually seen them in almost a year. The last time I was with them was last Christmas. Just imagine. I know my dad misses me too, 'coz he just can't stop reminding me to go home this Christmas. Anyway, for sure, I'll be home for Christmas - I basically don't have a reason to stay here in Cebu.
Anyway, I also have a loved one who has already gone to the other side of this universe - my uncle, Tito Amiel. He died of something related to his liver. What we all knew was that he had liver serosis {i hope i have the spelling right}. And they just didn't pay much attention until one day, he just went away. That was during my review for the board exam, August 22 (of 2005) if I'm not mistaken. I was in Manila then and I remember feeling really empty and helpless, and I just cried and cried and really got frustrated that I wanted to strangle someone because I knew they just didn't do all that they could, not even when my grandma was already pleading for help. I hated that day, and will continue to. I hated several people that day and swore that I will never be like them. Swore that as much as I can, and as much as I possibly can, I will never leave my family behind nor disregard their needs especially when it's related to their health. I swore I'll never be like them. I still stand by that vow. Although the feelings have subsided as time passed, I still remember vividly how I reacted and felt when I heard that my Tito was gone. I just wanted to fly home and burn down their house! Grrrhhh!!!
Hmph. Nonetheless, I just finished editing my Multiply layout. I got really bored at home and even if it's a holiday, I'm not writing this post from my office. I just felt I was cooped in my room and wanted to be free and yet be away from people. So, I went to the office. At least I have free internet access here. And I can also edit some pictures that I use in my layouts through my laptop. Hmmm.
Think I've got to go now. I have an 8:30 show to catch in studio 23. Hehehe. Studio 23 has lots of good shows. I'm an avid fan of these american series like Grey's Anatomy, Kyle XY, Smallville (Tom Welling is sooooo super cute!), and several others, and studio 23 has reruns of these for us folks who still cannot afford cable tv.
Some of the episode though are labeled "Fresh" meaning, they're not so delayed from the actual run abroad. So there. Have to go!Mwuah! Have a great long weekend everybody!
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